Nasa MCDO kaming magkakaibigan umoorder ng lunch, today is sunday and time to face reality again tomorrow
Habang nagiintay nang time ko to order biglang nagsalita si John
"Kamusta ka? Grabe pangalawang beses na to" I just smiled at him, honestly I don't know how to react. Naisip ko oo nga no, how am I this second time? Kamusta nga ba ako?
Maraming nangamusta sakin as usual ang sagot ko ok lang. Kahit halata naman na hindi pa ok, whenever I hear her name I just wanna cry, pero something just stops me from breaking down. I think its our group of friends.
"I have to be strong for them" I say to myself, but until when? Hanggang kelan nila ako magiging anchor
All this time I keep myself busy I started digital drawing, and I'm working as sales/ admin from a company, I started writing, I'm even doing embroideries, I also watch a lot, then writing poems and proses. Keeping myself busy keeps me from thinking of her, as I broke those activities here I was like woah that's many HAHA I'm like am I really doing those things? me? a great tamad HAHA but kidding aside yeah mahirap talaga siya.
Halos araw araw din kami nagkikita nila Juhlien, maybe to comfort each other and to enjoy each others company amidst of this. We even decided to finish the booklet we are making 2 years ago as a dedication to its mastermind Yannie.
"So ano nga, lalagyan natin ng art yung booklet tapos Juhlien ikaw na bahala ah" simula ni Lourdes
"Ah ok sige sige" sagot ni Juhlien
"Let's decide for topics naman, I'm thinking of five topics kase were five in our group? What do you think?" napatango naman ako, pwede pwede
"Yah sige" I said
"Dapat unique yung parang pagnabasa nila yung book natin masasabi nila na "ay oo nga no isa to sa naglilimit sa love" ganun kase karamihan is sanay na sila na yun talaga yung naglilimit" explain ni Lourdes
Yung pagiisip namin umabot ng 11 pm buti bukas padin yung KFC non HAHA, nung magisa nalang ako doon ko naramdaman yung lungkot, ganon naman palagi diba, kung kelan ka magisa. I know ganun din sila. So as a "strong" person I encoouraged almost everyone na super affected nung loss like his ate and brother. Nahypocrituhan pa ko sa sarili ko non kase I'm hurting as they are pero wala e I need to be strong, its like a defence machenism of mine. Being strong and crying in silence maybe because panganay ako?
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Don't Leave Me
RandomBased on a true to life story of mine. I came up with this idea as a copping to grief of my 2nd bestfriend who left this world. I bet this will be my diary 😁. Sorry for the typos if there's any. Im still a newbie 😆 Thankyou Readers
