it was worth it

chapter 1

*some chapters will have outfits at the top :) *

"Are you guys ready for your first day back?" My mom asked as we were on our way to hell. Evelyn gives me that look that she's about to say something bitchy. "I mean Mrs. Leon, it's not like anythings changed, right?" I hate when Evelyn gives her unnecessary rude tone to a simple question but she's my best friend so i'm used to it by now. "Yes mom we're really excited, love you, see you later" I say as I grab my things.

As Evelyn and I get out of the car, I give her the side eye as she gets out. "Oh yeah you're so excited Sage!" Evelyn says in a sarcastic tone. I roll my eyes at her and let out a small chuckle as we walk into the school taking in the familiar scent of the freshmen boys and their nasty axe spray, I seriously don't know why they use the whole bottle.

Evelyn and I walk out of Mr.Burns class. "What do you have for 2nd?" I asked Evelyn. "Mrs.Torres' physics class, you?" I look down at my schedule to see Mr.Fitz, "Oh I have Fitz, apparently he's like really hot." Evelyn smirks at me, "Oh don't even, I would never pull a stunt like that" I chuckle. "Anyways see you at lunch." I continue walking down the same hall and finally start approaching room 284 as I see James Walker, quote on quote man whore walking into room 284. I look down at my schedule to see if this is the right class since James is a senior, "Yup this is gonna be a shit show" I mumble under my breath.

I take a quick glance of  the room and I'm honestly surprised, before I walk in I take out my phone and text Evelyn.

S: why am i not surprised that Fitz is a history teacher😭

E: i say hook up with him, you need it

S: wtf do you mean i "need it"

E: well you know you haven't gotten laid yet, you're 16 and we live in queens, with so. many. options

S: oh shut up

E: love u too babe

I chuckled looking down at my phone, "Miss De Lion, are you going to join us?" Fitz says out loud to the class making my cheeks turn a dark shade of red. "Oh- uh- um- I was just making sure this was the right class and also it's pronounced lee-on" I say standing awkwardly playing with my hands. "Ok Miss Leon, take an empty seat." I scan the room, but then I see that the only open seat is next to James fucking Walker. I walk over to my seat, and catch James' eyes glued on me, making me feel uncomfortable.  Why is he looking at me like that. Did he get hotter? No, I have to stop thinking about him like this especially with the shit he did last year. "Are you gonna keep drooling over me or what, sweetheart?" He said in a cocky tone. Fuck I didn't realize I was staring. "Fuck off." I whispered sternly. "She's feisty now huh?" He asked, smirking. He is such an ass I refuse to let him get to me. "Shut up James I'm not putting up with you-" I said already, getting flustered, but before I could even finish my sentence I was interrupted by Fitz. "Do you have anything you would like to share with the class?" He asked both James and I, with an annoyed look. With that, the bell rang, and I hurried out the door before James could even say a word, and was on my way to lunch to meet up with Evelyn and Ryan.

As I got to the lunchroom, I saw Evelyn, Ryan, and his other friends sitting at our usual table. I haven't seen Ryan in months, and noticed a difference in his appearance , maybe taller? Anyways I greet Ryan and his friends with a warm smile. "Oh c'mon Sage, you're gonna greet me like that?" Ryan said sarcastically. I was confused but then he gave me a big hug, and of course I hugged him back. I've known Ryan since we were in the 6th grade, we always got along well even after he started to become one of the popular kids freshman year. "So how was Fitzs' class, I heard that he called you out for talking with the James Walker." Evelyn teased. "I don't wanna talk about it" I laughed as I started to eat my sandwich. I felt Ryan give me a side eye.. This lunch period was obviously short since it was the first day back.

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The rest of the day was a blur, mostly pretty easy stuff but all I could think about was the fact that I would be going to an AA meeting after school. A couple of months ago was a rough time for my family and I after the death of my older sister. She was my best friend, the one person I could always rely on, but cancer took that away from me. I didn't know how to cope with it until I was exposed to drinking alcohol on a daily basis. My grades started slipping and I was slowly losing myself, the drinking numbed the pain I felt. After struggling with that habit for a little more than a month, my mother found bottles of alcohol stuffed under my bed. She didn't give up on me and send me to a rehab center, instead she gave me the opportunity to try new hobbies to get better and go to AA meetings to hear other peoples stories on alcohol abuse.

    A couple minutes go by and my mother calls me,  she's at the front of the school to pick me up. I quickly walked towards the entrance and when I saw her car I hop in, Evelyn had volleyball tryouts so she didn't need a ride. "Ready?" Mom asks. I hesitate to nod my head. And just like that we're on the way to my first AA meeting. A few minutes pass by and I look out and see the entrance for the people attending the meeting. "Do you want me to go in with you" Mom asks with a soft smile. "No mom, I'm fine" I give her one back. "Ok, well just know that i'm one call away if you need anything, love you mi princesa I'll see you later, oh and you know you I cant pick you up today. So heres the subway card. Be safe" She says in her caring voice as she hands me a Metrocard. "Thats ok, Love you too" I say as I get out of the car and on my way to the entrance. I walked in and the lady at the front desk greeted me and handed me a slip I walked inside the building that was pretty small, had brick walls and different rooms. I saw a sign that said "AA meeting" next to the entrance of one of the rooms. I walked in and couldn't believe what I was seeing.

*AUTHORS NOTE*: so what do you guys think of the story so far? any recommendations?