Wonderland (Chris brown/ Christopher brown )

34. My journal

Tyler sat by poolside reading a book it had been 2 days since she'd been there and it still wasn't comfortable she still hoped Christopher was coming back. She was also mourning over the loss of her child.
J came and sat next to her.
"How's my baby ?"
"Fuck of J I just want to go home "
"You are home "
"No I'm not !" She snapped at him storming into the house back into her room.
"Don't walk away from me !" J stormed after her grabbing her arm.
"I hate you " she shouted in his face.
J was hurt tremendously inside he loved this girl and she hated him, he let to of her arm.
"Okay " he mumbled before walking downstairs to sulk.
Tyler could see the hurt in his eyes but she didn't care she didn't want to be here , she despised J , he took her away from her love , took her child and messed up her life she wanted him to rot.

"Miss roscera ?" The butler knocked on the door.
This was the only person Tyler liked in the house the butler was called Quincy he was quite old but very sweet.
"Hello Quincy" she smiled.
" I just wanted to know if you'd like something to eat miss , you look very stressed " he smiled back.
"Yeah that would be nice "
"What would you like to eat ?"
"surprise me " Quincy started walking out the room when he looked back.
"He does love you miss, he just doesn't know how to show it "
"Doubt that Quincy but thanks "
"Welcome miss " Quincy smiled and continued to go downstairs and make Tyler a bite to eat.
Tyler sat alone in the room she unfortunately shared with J she looked around abit before tripping over a box.
She kissed her teeth picking up the box.
It was marked with 'family '
She opened the box to see pictures of Q and his mother and father , a sign out sheet from his mental home and a picture of Tyler and Q she smiled looking at the picture if her and Q she missed him dearly.
She also saw a medium sized brown box with Js name on it.
She opened it.

March 18th 2006

I've been in this fucking hell hole for 5 years , I hate that bitch nurse Tracy she's so fucking fate can't wait to kill her ass one day , we had new meat today she's got body for her age she's like 14 I'm gonna get in her panties soon.

"What a fucking creep " Tyler mentally threw up inside.

And skipped a few pages where he was just talking about how he fucked a few nurses and girls.

"Bragging about pussy what an immature little cunt "

April 26 2006

Q came to visit me today but he didn't tell mom or dad , I'm gonna kill them aswell fucking cunts , why does my brother have everything ? He showed my his girlfriend Tyler today she's fine as fuck I'mma get her when we get outta here , he told me he's gonna get in serious trouble when he gets back but he doesn't care. He says I can come live with him when I get out. I love my brother man he's the only one I got. Can't wait to get out.

Tyler thought about the good side of Q and smiled she actually started to feel sorry for J the only person he had was dead , he literally had no one his parents disowned him with the rest of his family and his brother was dead. What J really needed was someone to love him and Tyler was starting to see that.

May 25th 2006

Me and pheobe fucked today , I took her virginity.

Tyler shrugged not knowing he raped her.

June 30th 2006

IM SO FUCKING SICK OF THE PLACE IM GONNA BLOW THIS SHIT UP ONE DAY I SWEAR.

A page was ripped out between that day

July 2nd 2006

I can't believe I did it, I didn't mean to.

"What did he do ?" Tyler mumbled to herself.

She looked back and through the box for the page but it was gone.

September 12th 2006

They took me of the goddamn pill today thank god ! I didn't need them mother fuckas anyway.

"Pills ?" There was so much Tyler needed to know.

"What are you doing ?!" A deep voice snapped.

It was J.