MICO: A Untold Lovestory

Before it sinks in

KIMMY'S' POINT OF VIEW

Paano ko ba sisimulan? uhm, hahaha! sorry di kasi ako ready. Okay, eto na.

We met online, i was just sixteen back then. Bata no? Hahahaha! Actually sa isang brodcasting app kami nagkakilala. Pareho kaming host. Magkaibang agency nga lang.

Sobrang unexpected ng pagkakakilala namin. In-introduce lang sya samin ng common friend din namin dun sa app, HAHA ang cringe nga kasi in the first place yunh friend ko talaga lumalandi sakanya. And then.. One day,

I woke up..
Realizing that i already loving that person,

Ano kase.. Bigla nalang nakachat, usap, hanggang vidcall na. As in Araw araw! Out of a sudden i realized that he's already a part of my everyday routine, alam nyo na yun. He was my like my coffee every morning. NAKAKAADIK NA KAPE!

Days, turned to months and months turned to years..

Years...

HAHAHAHAHAHA! taon na kaming ganito..

Ganito,

Sweet...

Were like bestfriend but a little bit more than that, get's nyo? ganun.

kasi..

we like each other...

we did say iloveyou and imissyou...

pero...

yun ang ang problema...

may pero lagi sa dulo,

pero...

Di ko sya matawag na akin..

pero...

Di ko sya magawa ipagdamot..

pero...

Wala akong rights sakanya..

ano.. ganun lang, gusto ko lang sya gusto nya lang ako...

"Oo na nga he said he likes u too, but we need confirmation!!!! kung sa segunda manong asukal nga may sigurado sa relasyon pa kaya!"

i remember one of our friends saying that.

buti pa asukal, may sigurado.

kami kaya?

interviewer: Did u ever tell to that person about what your thoughts or feelings about him?

Yes.

Atapang ako ih.

Pero, kidding aside. Yes.

Sabi ko, Anong plano mo sakin?

diba? palamando ako eh.

He replied.

"Walang plano, basta alam ko gusto kita"

Ouch pain.

Eto yung moment na.

narerealized ko..

I am waiting for unsure someone

yung ako sure nako sakanya...

but i don't think that he feels the same way.

Pero inisip ko, okay lang. Baka masyado pang maaga. Baka Dipa sya ready.

So ang lola nyo.

Nagantay ulit, HAHAHAHAHA

Masokista yarn?

2years have been passed

but i still didn't get the answer that i want...

One day we had this huge argument...

that led us to go on our seperate ways.

"GUSTO KITA! OO GUSTO KITA, GUSTONG GUSTO KITA KIM! PERO.. OKAY NAKO NA GUSTO LANG KITA, OKAY NAKO NA GANITO LANG TAYO, KASI... HINDI KO NAKIKITA YUNG SARILI KO KASAMA KA SA ISANG TOTOONG RELASYON!"

And that's a bullet!

Wasak ang puso ng lola nyo.

All these years, i am being with someone na.. ang tingin lang sakin is for company. Na ang tingin lang sakin is, pampakilig, pampatawa.

i want to stay...

pero masyado ko ng binubugbog yung sarili ko sa kasinungalingang magagawa nya akong ilaban.

ILABAN??? hahahaha what a joke.

Interviewer: for that specific person, what is your message for him if ever he can hear you right now.

Seryoso ba? Sige.

Baby, Ay sorry pasmado. Jasmir, Kamusta? Nakahanap ka na ba ng taong nakikita mo na kasama mo sa isang relasyon? kung oo, edi sana all. Pero.. Imissyou. Sabihin na natin na i still like you, I still think of you, Its just that after what happen between us a year ago it made me realized na mas dapat ko pang pahalagahan yunh sarili ko para syempre sa taong willing mag risk ng feelings, emotions and future sakin. But i have no regrets, I have loved you unconditionally, Walang pag sisisi dun. Masarap kang mahalin e.  I hope you're doing all fine now. Because, i am.

Before our love story sinks in,

i just want to say thank you.

Thank you...

for bringing the best out of me.

Thank you...

For being my ray of sunlight...

Thank you...

For such treasurable memories...

And..

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry, for being not enough.

I have no any regrets of wanting you

because once upon a time...

You are my world.