you know you can tell that your about to cry when a sharp pain goes to your heart almost instantly. You're afraid that you're going to lose the person you love to a guy that barely speaks to you. your afraid that he'll take advantage and you'll lose her because of him.. but you start shaking when you come to terms with it because you can't do anything about it, your scared of this guy.. your scared of all the things he has done, your scared of the way he treats people.. yet you let it slide because it's her. you, care for her. only her.. not the guy you're dating, not the girl who seems interested in you. her. you feel a dark urge coming up.. its not anything bad but an urge to go up to him and beat the fuck out of him.. because.. it's her, he kissed that day in March of 2021. it's her who you have known longer than him. it is her who has been there when you cried because she's the only one who can calm you down, it's her.. "you're being selfish." that voice inside of your brain tells you, "you should let her be with him." it tells you harsher.. you're left with nothing but pain.. but you can't cry.. no, that's not what she wants.. it wasn't her fault he kissed her.. it. was. his. you feel a raging boil up inside of you but you can't let it out because your friends, the ones who sit by you, that make you happy sit by you.. hey have never heard you cry but they would feel your pain if you did.. so you're going to tell your group tonight..
