I love you

Chapter 9: The kidnapped.

James

(After Natasha left the Balcony)

I feel like a failure. I am the one too blamed for this break up. If I had only trust her, if I have only show her the picture. If I have only let her explain herself. If only I had done the right things now, she is gone. 

"I don't know if we can go back to the way we use to"

Those words hurt me. I know I deserved this pain. I sigh as look out to the city. I fuck up with all my insecurities and my stupid jealousy. I fuck up the best thing that happen to me and for what?

She look so beautiful to night. So stunning, that the only thing I wanted to do was kiss her senseless. I felt my blood boil as I recalled how some men were staring her with lustful gazes. 

Uh! I hated it! I just can't stand how man look at her like a piece of meat.

 I felt a presence behind me and I turn to find a woman staring at me. I frown as she look at me up and down. I was starting to get uncomfortable, so I decided to go but she stop me stepping in front of me.

"Oh! Sorry! I apologize for staring but aren't you the famous Soldier, all SHIELD is talking about?" I resist the urge to roll my eyes but I just gave her a nod before passing by and I heard her gasp. 

I open the door just to come face to face with Clint with a woman beside him.

Huh. What now? I thought. 

"Barnes I want you to meet my fiancée" and I was shocked. 

So he really has a fiancée, Barnes you should had trusted Nat! You really screw up!

The woman had black hair and chocolate brown eyes. She look at me and extend her hand.

"Hey my name is Laura, is nice to meet you" she said with a kind smile and I shook her hand.

"Barnes, James Barnes" and she titled her head and something flashed in her eyes.

"Aren't you Tasha boyfriend?" and I stiff "Yes but-"

She cut me off  "congrats on the baby by the way" 

I respond with smile and I excused myself from both of them and went to the bar.

I really need a drink now.

"What do you want sir?" the bartender ask.

"Something strong" I answered nonchalantly. He raised an eyebrow at me "How strong?"

"Strong enough to make me forget" and he nodded as he prepared my drink. And I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turn to see Clint, again.

"Barnes-"

"Clint-"

We both said at the same time and then laugh.

"I think I owe you an apology " I said to him

"I was so jealous of your close relationship with Natasha that I thought you were trying to steal her from me" I answer honestly and he just shook his head.

"James you got it all wrong, me and her are only like siblings, yeah we dated years ago but we didn't love each other, I guess that why we never work" he reply.

"I moved on, she moved on, and we both happy, I still don't trust you enough, but I know that you will be a good father" his face had turn serious.

"And don't hurt Nat" he said with a stern voice.

"I will Clint" I reply seriously.

"Then proved it James." he said and with that he walk off.

"Sir your drink" he said as he placed a cup in front of me. I didn't ask what was it and I just drunk it all.

Proved it to her but how? I love that woman so much I would do anything for her, but she needs space. She's hurt right now. The least I could do is give her time. And take care of our baby.

I simile as I thought of our baby who I will love and cherished with all my being.

Suddenly my head started aching and I start getting dizzy.

The hell? I can't get drunk for only one glass? What kind of alcohol is this?

I turn my head to ask the bartender but there was nobody.

I sat there for a moment thinking it will go away but it only got worse. 

I need to lay down.

I try my best to keep my balance until I got to the elevator. But I dump into someone on the way.

"Watch it-oh hey handsome" the woman said and I just nodded and pressed the number of the last floor. 

"Are you ok?" the woman ask as she placed a hand on my shoulder and I moved away.

"Oh don't be shy" she giggled I just groaned as my headache intensify.

"Soooo are you from here?" she said and I just ignored her.

Gosh! Can't she just shut up!

"Aww come on don't leave me hanging" she said pressed herself to my side. I brutally pull away from her.

Can't this thing go faster. She really starting to pissed me off.

"Come on I just trying to be friendly" the woman said and I turn my head to look at her but her face look blurry the only thing I could make out was that she had blond hair and I think blue eyes. 

DING!

Finally! I thought as I dragged myself out of the elevator to the parking lot to my car ignoring the woman calls.

I quick got in it and drove to my house. I try my best not to fall of my face but when I got to the door, something got my attention.

I didn't leave the door open.

I went inside to see my living room completely destroyed all the furniture was upside down, and broken glass on the floor, but the words written in red on the wall got my blood boil.

I heard my phone ring.

"Hello" I said uncertainly

"Bucky come here now!" Steve yelled.

"What happen?" I ask alarm.

"It's Natasha, she been kidnapped" and I felt my world stop for a moment. I turn to the words written on the wall and I clenched my fist.

Hail Hydra