The memories of past awaken, eyes open. The truth finally seen...too late maybe but still worth trying.everyday a new struggle.been to all forms of help, anger management, physiological treatment and many more. nothing can stop me from being away from those blue and yellow purple pills.mushroom mountains...voices, they're getting too much, annoying.who is to Blame?who would have thought this was conclusion. mentally unstable. what can I do? So many questions...so many thoughts...how much can one take. how much can you take? Is it me or the world is crumbling,slowly but it's crumbling, violently, it collapses. every day is a struggle...what has life become. a merciless unstoppable cycle of hatred and envy. What has life become? Brutally, eyes were opened to see the reality.Why am I so socially awkward ? Am I a martian stuck on the wrong planet?
What kind of twisted experiment am I involved in?
Is it my fault or something logically not logical
'Cause it feels like I don't belong in this world
Is That why I'm scoffing at authority?defiant often
Flying off towards the mountains, hallucinating them pigs are flying.So They say,I am non-compliant at home, at school I'm just shy and socially awkward.
And I don't need no goddamn psychologist Tryna diagnose why I have all these underlying problems
Thinking he can try and solve them and know shit about them .I am walking around with the same attitude as Ted Bundy. Waiting to explode before these verses become diabolically legitimate and I can't control it.
I'm outside chalking up drawing on the sidewalk
And in the front drive talking to myself
Either that or inside hiding off in the corner somewhere quiet, scanning through these manage like light yagami.Trying not to be noticed 'cause I'm crying and sobbing and am literally sducidal and no one can stop me.I had a bad day at school so I ain't talkingSome cocksucker shoved me into a fucking locker 'Cause he said that I punched him
Discriminated against entire life and segregated cause of skin colour.Now here if you know what I mean
Then u are someone understanding
Looking out this window , I see them walking
Ohh they have them nice friends huh is that's me honest?
I don't even know what to say now that I think? And I look at hem with hate and wanting to kill brutally and thinking its justice and looking right at the panel with demonic armies,
Goku just destroyed broly and nine tails the families
Hell I fell like light yagami, what could it be? I am wondering.
"And if you fall, I'll get you there I'll be your savior from all the wars that are fought
Inside your world Please have faith in my words"
It's obvious that all these are just lies, It is a nightmare and nothing more, but a nightmare of the most extraordinary verisimilitude and poetical powers like the one above all has or is it just the truth I am denying .I don't know what the hell I am even talking and this is just some crazy talk and that's what I wanna think but it's obvious that I am in denial But hey, am I the one to blame for this all
Pretty obvious .........
