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Im stronger than this, i know I am but I'm just ugh to afraid of the consequences. I've never done this before. This isn't me I don't know what to do.

"So are you coming tonight?" My best friend jenny asked again

I don't know should I or shouldn't I, I'm confused, let's jut say that I'm a goody two shoes and I've never done this before or had to think about it. But I don't know.

"Fine I'll go but just....." I gripped my hair in frustration.

"No, buts you said yes your going, so I'll see you to night bye" before I could respond the line went dead.

Ugh I don't know what I just got myself into, today is the second to last day of summer and this guy is throwing this huge party and jenny invited me to go because well I hate doing that stuff. I have to sneak out at 12:30 and meet her at The Walmart by my house, and then the guys older brother is gonna come pick us up.

Oh and did I forget To mention that I hate doing this stuff, I've never done it and I'm scared. I don't know why I'm so scared I mean I'm almost 15, 15 year olds do stuff like this don't they.

"Mia sweet heart it's almost time for dinner, get your brother and sister and bring your baby brother when you come down please!" My mom yelled from the bottom of the stairs bringing me away from my thoughts.

"Yes ma'am" I got up and went down the hall. I knocked on my 5 year old sisters door.

"Loussie time for dinner go down stairs and wash your hands" she opened the door gave me a hug and then ran down the stairs. I laughed and made my way to my 7 year old brothers door.

I opened the door to find him playing a video game, I smiled.

"Come on luke time for dinner go wash up" he paused the game and ran past me. I shook my head and went to my baby brothers room.

I walked in to find him asleep so I walked up to his crib quietly. I was almost there when one of the floor boards creaked behind me and micha started to cry. so I quickly walked to his crib and picked him up.

"Oh shh, micha it's ok shh" he kept crying so I started to sing

"Hm hmmmmm hm hmmmm hm, hush little baby don't you cry, momma's gonna buy you a diamond ring and if that diamond ring don't shine momma's gonna buy you a mocking bird and if that mocking bird...." micha stop crying and fell asleep, good ha I grabbed his dipper bag and walked down stairs.

When I got down stairs my little brother and sister were already eating dinner. I walked to the fridge and grabbed one of micha's bottles and went and sat in my chair at the counter and waited for him to wake up.

"Mia you know you don't have to do that you need to eat sweetie" my mom said but micha was already awake again so I grabbed the bottle and started to feed him.

"I know but I want to" she sighed then smiled and placed my dinner infront of me witch consisted of a salad with Dino nuggets.

When micha was done I gave him to mom so I could eat my dinner, loussie and luke were fighting like usual then ran upstairs after each other. I laughed.

"Your such a good kid you know" my mom said then walked up stairs with micha, I put my dish in the sink and ran up stairs and shut my door.

Know it's gonna be even harder for me, omg I don't know if I can sneak out know, she's gonna be so disappointed in me.

-5 hours later-

Everyone's in bed except for me I tried to sleep but I couldn't and know I'm getting ready for the party, jenny told me to wear a really cute bathing suit and a cute out fit so I'm basically destroying my closet, I only have 30 minutes to get ready. I don't know why I'm going threw with this but I'm scared I'm gonna be made fun of if I don't.

I finally found something cute, it is a strapless bikini with the American flag printed on it. I quickly put it on and searched for the rest of my outfit. I soon found my jean high wasters and my white reckless crop top and put them on, then quickly walked to my mirror.

I did my make up and then put my converse on and grabbed my phone and slowly opened my door, I looked down the hall way and then ran down the stairs to the front door.

This is it, I can't do it, yes I can, no I can't, ok yes I can I'm gonna do this I got this.

I check the time oh my phone and almost scream, I have 12 minutes to get there, ugh know I have to do this.

I slowly opened the door and walked out then shut it and started running to walmart.