𝐢 𝐠𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐢'𝐦 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 | 𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐞𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡

chapter four

ava's pov.

the last two days with billie here has been weird. but it hasn't really been about us, it's been about her and aila bonding.

aila loves billie, she's been mommy to her since i told her. billie has spent the last two nights here with aila, sleeps with her and all. it's nice to get a little bit of a break since usually it's just me doing it all, but it's weird.

me and billie have kept our conversation small. i want to talk, i'm just nervous. i didn't know if billie was nervous to talk to me, but i doubt it. billie is the type to just say how she feels no matter what, but billie has changed.

she's not the same billie anymore, and i'm not
the same ava.

another situation is kennedy. she keeps calling me and texting me and saying that i'm still hers and she's sorry..etc. but i'm ignoring it all. i don't miss her, and i do not want to be with her.

but i don't necessarily know if i want to be with billie either.

it's just gonna take time, but i know i do love her.

so we can just co-parent for now.

but it'll be hard, she's going back on tour in two days, and i have no idea how i feel about it.

when i think about it, i feel a huge tug in my chest.

but i just ignore it.

i lay on the couch with aila, and she eats her morning puffs and watches tv. it's only 6am so it's only us awake.

after a few more minutes, i hear footsteps down the stairs. i look over and billie is there smiling widely at aila.

she looks so perfect even when she wakes up, her green and black hair was in a ponytail and she had a tank top and sweatpants on.

aila squeals and runs off the couch to her. aila loves billie a lot, just like billie loves her. she's going to be devastated that billie has to go.

"hi baby. & goodmorning miss ava." billie says, with a wink.

i pick up some of ailas mess and smile. "goodmorning billie." i say, walking over to the kitchen sink.

billie sits aila on the table and plays around with her, as i clean.

there's a lot of tension, but it's not the tension you think. my whole body is on fire, just like it used to be for her. her effect on me never changed.

"uh so..i leave in two days." billie mumbles, while playing with ailas hair.

i dry off some of the dishes and sigh. "i'm aware."

i hear a phone buzzing, and i look for mine. i couldn't find it, until billie has it in her hand, kennedy's facetiming me.

"she's still around i see." billie says under her breath.

i sigh. "she's not. i'm all set with her billie." i say.

billie picks up aila and hands me my phone. "tonight we are going out. marina and adry said they'd watch aila." she says, walking towards the couch.

deep down i really want too, but then other
parts of me says i shouldn't, my pussy also says yes.

so.

"you didn't even ask me." i said, with a small laugh.

billie turns back to me, and smiles.

"have i ever?"

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i put aila down for her nap, and i put on the baby monitor. i'm going out with billie in about 45 minutes and i have to get ready.