In the Dark

Chapter Two

***TRIGGER WARNING: SEXUAL ABUSE, SUICIDAL***

Daddy opened the door and threw me outside " get your ass to the car now!" he yelled and slammed the door and i heard the sound of  glass breaking. I slowly rose from the cold hard ground and brushed the snow off of my bear arms and legs. I looked around and spotted my dad's old blue Honda parked just a little way down the street. As i walked down the street bear footed in the snow all I could think about was how things used to be. I mean this was my dad. The one who was supposed to protect me, comfort me, and love me. But yet here he was the one who is hurting me more than anyone. He used to be the greatest dad in the world until my mom told him she was a lesbian and could not stand to be with him any longer. Daddy started drinking and became a totally different person. I got to the car and got in the back seat as i sat there in the silence i felt tears run down my cheeks. I loved my dad but i hated him at the same time. I finally saw daddy coming out of the apartment and he headed toward the car. All i could do was brace myself for whatever would come next. He got into the car and glances at me huddled up in the backseat. "Put your seat belt on Regina we have a long way to go" I could feel this burning inside me to just open the door and run for it and all of a sudden I got this burst of courage. " why so you can just strangle me with it? its not-..." before i could get the rest out he reached back and back handed me so hard i could see the impression of his hand on my face in the review mirror. " Do as i say damn it!" I quickly put my seat belt on and pulled my legs up to my chest and put my head in my knees. I tried not to let him hear me cry but i think he knew anyways. As we drove to my old house i pretty much cried myself to sleep but before i did i watched daddy down almost two whole six packs. I woke up to him pulling me out of the car by my hair and into the house. I tried to at least stand up but it was no use. Daddy had a firm grip in the locks of my long hair and he was not going to let go. He dragged me down the basement stairs and i could feel the splinters stabbing me in my back like needles. He dragged me to the furnace in the far corner of the room and hand cuffed me to it. " I'm going to teach you that a man is in charge! Damn it i have needs that have to be met and you know what... your going to meet those tonight." It was dark and cold and i couldn't really see anything. but i could hear and feel everything. I heard my dad start to pace back and forth and then he stopped dead in his tracks. As i laded there my mind started to race trying to figure out what he meant. Then all of a sudden he got on top of me and pulled out a knife. " I'm going to give you an experience that you'll never forget."he whispered in my ear and flipped out the knife. He lightly ran the blade across my face and down the side of my neck. He then grabbed my tank top and cut it all the way down the middle. " Daddy what are you doing?!? Stop it please!!!" i struggled under him trying to get free." your not going anywhere bitch" he said and then put his lips on my chest "STOP!!" i yelled. he pulled my shorts off and my underwear throwing them across the room. " NO!! STOP IT PLEASE!! your my dad!! PLEASE!!" i yelled pleading with him. He stood up and unbuttoned his pants and took them off. He got back on top of me and I could feel him push inside of me. I screamed in pain and he pushed even harder."STOP!! DADDY PLEASE IT HURTS!!" " I told you I have fucking needs and your going to fill them! Stop trying to get free damn it!" He put the knife at my side and i felt the blade as he pushed farther into me. His weight on top of me made me feel like i was being crushed. It seemed like forever until he was finally done. He got up and put his pants back on. " I hope you enjoyed that. now i have to punish you for not listening to me." he grabbed my anckel and handcuffed it to the furnace and without another word just walked up the steps shutting the door and locking it behind him. " Please don't leave me down here! Daddy please! its cold and i don't have any clothes on please!!" Nothing. I laid there and just cried. Why was this happening to me? What did i ever do to deserve this? I guess i would never know. I could feel the furnace heating up and it was getting hot on my bear skin. I just couldn't understand why i was even alive. Why did God create me if only to give me to a family that tears me apart every day inside and out. At that moment i just broke down. " God please just kill me now! Take me out of this place! I cant take it anymore just send an angel to come get Me please God please." As i cried out to God the furnace got hotter and hotter. It was glowing orangish red color now and my screams to God turned into screamers of horrifying pain. The more i struggled to get free the worse it got. The heat made bubbles on my arms and legs. The handcuffs were so tight and got so hot that they burned into my wrists. It felt like my skin was just going to melt off my body leaving nothing but bones. " Daddy please!" I managed to get out but my voice was getting shallow and it was harder to breath.I tried to stretch myself as far away from the heat as i could but it was no use all i could do was pray God would have mercy on me and i would die soon. My breathing slowed tremendously and then everything went dark.