nj boys smut

i dont know what to call this

tw : sewerslide

completely heartbroken .
the only thing kairi could think about was him .
mattia polibio.
how could kairi get attached so quickly? and not even in a relationship way , a friendship way .
it's not even like it was something serious. he just always seemed to be there when kai was at his lowest but right now , he's not .
he's not here while kairi sits in the tub full of cold water with almost every pill bottle in his cabinet.
he opened them one by one downing each and every pill he touched . 
" it's gonna be okay , it's gonna be okay " kairi whispered to himself as tears spilled down his flushed cheeks . he felt himself go dizzy from the amount of pills he's taken .

he grabbed the pin and paper as he started to write .

"dear mattia , how you doing bud ? i hope you're well . sigh , i'm not sure what to say right now , i don't usually write notes haha . i just wanted to let you know this isn't your fault . well .. just a little . just kidding . it's not necessarily your fault it's an action that you've done . you've replaced me . it's okay i understand. i wouldn't wanna talk to me either lol . but just know you'll forever have a special place in my heart as my best friend and somewhat my lover . sorry i'm really not good at this
i love you mattia polibio.
oh and happy birthday bud <3
-kairi "

he put down the pen grabbing the blade in one hand and mattias present in the other. he put the present down while he brought the silver blade up to his wrist .

he went back and forth just cutting any skin he seen . once he felt one wrist was done he did the other . and once the other wrist was done he went down to his thighs . he felt it, he was going .
kairi looked in the mirror taking the blade towards his lips carving a smile as it dripped blood .
he looked down seeing his blood splattered on the paper .

his phone suddenly dinged .
" i'm onw "
mattia texted .
oh yea , he made plans with mattia . he almost forgot and was just hoping whoever found him would give him the note .

kairi dropped to the floor .
it's over .

" kairi ? " mattia banged on the door .  he twisted the door knob as the door came open .
" kairi ? " mattia had an eerie feeling in his stomach, something wasn't right .
he ran to kais room swinging open the door . no one was there .

he heard water running , he looked back at the bathroom door opening it slowly .
" no .. NO " mattia dropped to his knees holding the limp bodied kairi in his hands .
" no kairi , get up " mattia sobbed dragging his finger lightly against his bloody face .
" no .." he trailed off seeing the note and the little box .
he grabbed the note reading it as he sobbed even harder .
he picked up the box .
"don't open until may 16th "

kairi was gone and it was all his fault .

time skip
may 16th, 2021

mattia sat in his room holding the small box in his hand debating on opening it .
he missed kairi everyday , he wished it didn't have to be like this . he wished kairi was sitting next to him with his beautiful smile .
he slowly took of the lid and it revealed a beautiful necklace , a locket . it was a picture of him and mattia looking happier than ever . he smiled .
mattia got up waking towards the mirror clipping the necklace on .
he sighed . it was so pretty .
he kissed it before he layed on the floor bawling his eyes out wishing that this was some sick dream . it wasn't . and nothing would change that .

five years later .
" honey , when are you gonna take off that ridiculous necklace off . it's ugly and old " mattias wife commented.
" w-what did you just say ? "
" i said- " mattia cut her off .
" get the fuck out , right now . i don't ever wanna speak to you or see your face again " mattia yelled .
" mat"
" NO " he pushed her out the door slamming it . he was fuming . how DARE she say that knowing exactly why he wears that necklace.

mattia cried again and again and again until.. he decided to end it .

"i'll see you soon kai "

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idk why but i was sad and then i wrote this and i feel better . excuse me ? 😀