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I lay in bed pondering on where I stand with John.I've loved him for so long,I mean 6 years as friends does a lot to you.You begin to understand a person and their life.You begin to comprehend them and their being.I saw who he really is as a person.He has been through a lot of pain and when he can't get it out I'm the one who feels his pain and affliction.So when it comes to things like love,I'm protective. I love him deeply and the only way to make sure he gets that love back is to make sure he finds the right love,even if it's not me.
I lose my train of thought as soon as I hear a knock at my room door.
"Who is it?" I ask.
"It's me,John." his tone of voice let's me know he's excited.Wait how did he get in?
"How the hell you did get in my house?"The words left my lips before I could think.
"Your mom let me in,so can you open up?"
"Fine,open the door." I shout. I stand up to realize I'm only wearing sweatpants and a sports bra.It's too late to conceal myself,John is already at my door.
"Hey,Novi I wa-"He stops at mid sentence to admire my outfit, or brief nudity.
"Novi, have you been working out?Cause you loo-" I cut him off before he could finish his statement.
"You sound excited,what's the cause?"I pretend to sound zealous and happy.I don't know why I'm asking this question when I already know the answer.
"I want you to meet Avery."
At the mention of her name I felt a pain in my heart.
"John I have a question?"
"I have an answer."I smile at his cheekiness.
"John you never told me about this girl before,how come now you want me to meet her?"
No response
"In the past,you usually tell me about the girl,then I meet her,but this time its different.I've never met Avery nor have you explained who she is and how you guys met."
"Well..," I can hear the hesitance in his voice.
"I know your skeptical about her,If it was you and a boy I would feel the same way,but you have to trust me,you're gonna like her." He sounded sincere and hopeful.I gave him the 'I hope your right look' and then the 'If she's a stuck up brat I'm gonna hurt you' look.
"so..."He had this written emotion look on his face that stated if I didn't say yes he would breakdown into tears.
I rolled my eyes and heaved a sigh "When do you want me to meet her?" I said in a dull tone. He began to smile and pump his fists into the air.I laughed at his ridiculousness.
"Tomorrow around 3 o'clock."He replied with glee.
"Where exactly?" I said indifferently. My words came out dull. I was scared to show any emotion at that point.It hurt to see him give his love to another girl who doesn't know his pain.If only he knew.
"Novi,are you okay?" His words brought me back to reality.
"Yeah,I'm listening." I Began to focus on his smile.His smile always has my attention.
"Sure...umm we're meeting at Starbucks so be ready,okay?" I can tell he means business.
"Yes,of course."I smile to reassure him I'm not gonna let him down.
For 5 minutes there is silence but not an awkward one.
"So is that the only reason you came here?" My voice breaks the stillness in the room.
"No,I also wanted to check up on you, to see if your okay," He reaches for my hand,he holds them close together then intertwines them.
"Are you okay?" He asked hesitantly. His voice is soft and gentle.I take a deep breath.I tried so hard to hide my feelings.
I can't believe I would think that he wouldn't know that I wasn't okay.It's sad how he knows my emotions,but not my endless love for him.
"Why am I alive?" Tears stream rapidly down my face.My chest burns and I cant seem to breath.The next thing I know I'm screaming and crying into Johns chest.
"I have no love," I cry out.
"my life is useless" I scream.
"No one knows who I am and no one cares for me" I feel his arms tighten around me.
"Your not useless,your not unlovable,I care for you and I know exactly how you are you" Soon after John pulls away, he wipes away my tears with the padding of his thumb.He kisses my for head and studies my face.I can only begin to think of what could happen next.
"You might not have a soul mate or a true love but you have me to cry on,to hold on to and me to comfort you during your darkest days and nights." This is exactly why I'm in love with my best friend.It hurts deeply to know he will never feel the same.
"That's what friends are for." That last statement gave me burning feeling in my throat.
"I have to go its getting late" He gave me one last hug before he left my room.
"Wait,let me walk you to the door." I quickly grabbed a t-shirt and lead John downstairs.
"Thanks for coming here tonight,I appreciate it" I give a John a light kiss on the cheek,then a hug.
"Anytime Novi." John pulls away "I'll call you later" A nod was my response.
He leaves and I lock the door behind him.I quickly run upstairs to only find my mom at my door.She looks sad but then she realizes I'm behind her and smiles.I get scared for my mom,she never expresses her feelings to me.I don't either but I'm a teenage girl I don't think I'm suppose to tell my mom my problems.She already has enough of her own problems,I'll just make it worst.
"Novi" My mom broke the silence.I looked up to see the sad expression on her face again.
"Mom,let me take you to bed okay.C'mon take my hand" I walk my mom to her room door and watch her get into bed and lye down. I quickly walk to my room and fall on to my bed.I think back on tonight's events and I smile and then slowly frown realizing that I'm meeting with the girl who took my true love away.Tomorrow will be the most dreadful day in my life.I quickly take my t-shirt off and lye between the sheets.I turn off my lamp and plug my phone.I then feel my phone vibrate. i wake up to see John"s face appear on my screen.I pick up my phone with annoyance.
"Yes John." I shift my position to get more comfortable.I know John, and usually when he calls late at night,the conversation doesn't end till morning.
"Novi hey,I just wanted to tell you goodnight and see if you were okay after I left."His voice was raspy and deep.I guess no late night conversation tonight.He was defiantly tired.
"I'm fine I'm just a little bit tired and weak"I yawned ad so did John
"Your right,we should sleep.Goodnight Nov,looking forward to tomorrow"
"Goodnight JD" John hung up and I fell asleep with one thought on my mind.
Meeting Avery.
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