Bittersweet Lies

Chapter 13

( Hana's POV)

I lay in bed and stare at my ceiling. Dad and Tae's mom went on a date night, and Tae is playing video games with Jimin in his room. I curl into a ball , my head is throbbing and sweat is forming on my forehead.  So scared it's going to happen again. I start tearing up and grip on my bed sheets.
" I'm fine , I have full control over myself." I say , trying to calm myself.
You're not fine, you aren't in control, I've been in control for a long time now Hana.

" Shut up!"
It's true baby, you killed Lisa, Jennie, Rosé , Jisoo and you'll be the death of Do-ah too. I mean you even killed your own  mom.

" No, you did that!"
You knew Jimin liked Hobi and that he would anything in his power to get him , yet you blatantly let Do-ah date him knowing full well that something bad would happen to her. You even suggested to Jungkook that he should get rid of his brother, you're a real monster Hana.

"No you did that! You're the monster, now I'm stuck in this mess you created!"
I am you Hana you're right, but you're me too, you can't get rid of me. I let you think you had full control when really I was just watching , waiting for the right moment. There was always a little voice influencing you wasn't there? All those blank spots in your memories , that was me. I did get rid of all those stupid bitches but they were in the way. Don't pretend you don't need me , if it wasn't for me you wouldn't be where you are now. Now we need to get rid of Areum and Ji-hoon too, don't you want to please your dad? Come on just let me take full control. Aren't you tired babygirl?

" Tae! Tae! I need you please!" I begin to cry more heavily now , I can't breath properly, my head is spinning and I feel like I'm about to throw up.
He won't be able to help you babygirl.
Taehyung then walks in the room with Jimin by his side.

" Baby what's wrong ?" He says while pulling me close to his body and hugging me tight.

" She's back sh- she she she back." I hiccup.

" Shhhhhh,baby she's not here  everything is going to be-"

" No she is ! She already killed Rosé and she knows everything! She's planning on getting rid of Ji-hoon too please Tae you need to help me." I cry

" Jimin get the pills." Jimin then leaves the room and comes back with sleeping pills.

They think you're crazy Hana
" I'm not crazy!" I yell

" No one said that Hana, just take these and if you wake up with that voice your in head again then tell me. You might just be stressed and-"

" But I'm not! You're not listening to me!"
Jimin then ties me down and holds my hands in place when Taehyung forces the pills down my throat.
I cough and cough but the pills then go down and I feel light headed.

" Wasn't that a but too much Tae?"

" Nah we're good , in a few minutes she'll be lights out."
I then close my eyes and drift off into dreamland.

" Should we be worried? The last time this happened was in junior year."

" No way, the pills she takes everyday and the therapist she sees said everything was going to be okay. Plus she looks fine to me. She must be stressed."

" Whatever, let's just go back downstairs I know I was about to win!"

" You wish."

Taehyung then tucks me in bed, kisses my temple and exits the room.
I quickly spit the pills out of my mouth, lock my room door and run to the bathroom.
I stare at myself in the mirror and begin to cry yet again.
You see? They think you're crazy, nothing has changed. Just let me take over, come on we'll do it 50/50. You have Tae and I'll have Kook.
" You still like Jungkook huh?"

I don't why but dominance in a man just turns me on you know? I even have a great plan since he couldn't finish the job himself.
" Okay, let's do this."
That's my girl! When I'm done here our lives will be perfect , no one to get in our way.

Little did I know that was my first mistake, trusting Hayoon would be the death of me.

(Areum's POV)

I wake up and it's exactly 10am, I go downstairs to make myself a cup coffee. It's been so hard for me , I've lost 2 friends in just 3 weeks, I feel alone at school. Luckily Hobi has been the bestest of a friend to me. I have lunch with him everyday and we talk about our feelings, we talk about how he is coping with Do-ah and he is honestly the best. His been nothing but supportive , he is a literal ray of sunshine.

I've actually also been getting closer to Jungkook, after Jisoo dying he's had some sympathy on me.
I'm trying to help him with his addiction, he told me to keep it on the low though. Despite his mood swings he is a complete sweetheart. I think I might be falling for him. I know it's crazy me going for a taken man. But I don't care , because if Hana and Jungkook really had good connection or were even in love she would be helping him not me. Maybe he'll realize I'm the one for him. Maybe.
As I make way to the kitchen I see Hobi and my grandma talking.

" Morning sweetie! Hobi came by to talk to. There's some cookies in the bowl over there, me and pa are going to the mall, I'll see you guys later!" She says while grabbing her handbag and walking out of the house while blowing me an air kiss.

" What are you doing here so early." I say and switch the kettle on

" I have a problem."

" So do I."
" If it's about your little crush on Jungkook , I already know sweetie."

" What?!? How?"

" The way you look at him. Your cheeks are all red when he compliments you and not to mention the fact that you ditched me to eat lunch with him!"

" Sorry about that." I say while rubbing my neck in an awkward manner.

" It's okay, but I don't think it's fine to be going after men in realtionships."

" I'm not! It's just a little crush I swear!"

" Sure."

" Now what's your problem?" I say while munching on one of the chocolate cookies my grandma made and offering Hobi one.

" I had sex."  I instantly choke on my cookie

" Okay..."

" With Jimin." The kettle then released steam , indicating it was done boiling and made a loud whistling sound.

" Hobi you're like the closest friends I have at this moment, you know all my secrets and you don't judge me so I don't want to judge you but , this doesn't sound very good. You literally cheated on Do-ah."

" I know and I regret it all , all of it I regret it. But I was just in a bad space , and Jimin was about to cry and I- I-"
Hobi then begins crying.

" I don't know what to do Areum!"
I hug Hobi tight and rub his back.

" Do you love Do-ah?"

" Yes."

" And Jimin?"

" I don't know."

" Shhhhhh, everything is going to be fine Hobi." I say and kiss his temple.

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