Do you? || L.T

1 month left, part 1

The clock is 7,30 in the morning, Elenaor is still asleep so I carefully goes up from the bed to the kitchen. I check if Bruce and Clifford have food and water and then went to give myself some food and water.

I heard how my phone left some noise from twitter, actually alot of noises came from it. I did not care to look what happend, I already knew what it said. Since I and Elenaor came out with our engagement we haven't got as much support as we wished and the hate El got was worse then ever and we as soon as we took our phones up a new hate towards her came and we could not take it anymore so we stopped check the social media now and we don't interact with our followers anymore.

This whole wedding thing was the managments idea, all they wanted was that every rumor of me having a relationship with Harry Styles. All the rumors have been going on since X-factor, and the rumors were at a time true, but not anymore and no one can find out that it actually was true.

Elenaor finally got up from bed, I saw on her face that she looked at the social medias and read what people wrote about our wedding. I gave her a hug and promised that everything would be okay, after the wedding people will understand that I actually love El and me and Harry will never happen. I turned on the TV to watch the news and the first thing that came up was that I was engaged and how angry my so called fans were.

While I watch the news I hear someone call me, I watch the screen and see a familiar name, Niall Horan. I decided to pick up.

-Hi Niall, i answered.

-Hi, I just wanted to congratulate you to your engagemant and i wish you all happiness! Niall sounded just as happy as he did back in the days, I'm happy that I met him, he always make people laugh, in a good way.

-Thank you, I really appreciat that you called me, we haven't got so many happy messages from people since we made it public.

-Yeah, I actually talked to Harry earlier, you know just to check on him, and I think that you two should talk.

I just froze, what Hazza thought about all this hasn't got to my mind, what if he took it hard and never wanted to talk to me.

-Lou, listen, you and Harry had something beautiful together, and it sad how it all ended, so just call him and talk to him so you two can get a real ending, a happy one. I heard on how Niall spoke that he didn't have the same energy as he did before.

-I.. I will try to talk to him. I didn't know how to feel, Harry was my first love and just because of the mangement it had to end so fast and hard.

-Do so, you know I'm always here man, I'm just one phone call away.

-Niall, thank you. I said and hung up the phone. Even if One Direction doesn't exist anymore I still talk to all the boys, they are and will always be like a family to me. I haven't spoke to Harry since the break, it just doesn't feel right. I don't even know how he feels about me, if he even thinks of me anymore.

After lunch I think of what Niall said, El does not know that I will call Harry, I can't talk about that with her right know, she has always been jealous of him, and to be honest, I don't know why.

-Who should go out with the dogs today? El asked me curious.

I thought about it, if she went out with Bruce and Clifford I could call Harry without her getting mad or anything, or if I got out I would know for sure that she wouldn't know that I called him.

-I can go out with them now honey, I suddenly said. She nodded to me and I went to get everything to the dogs and started to go.

The weather was lovely and I thought about what I should say to Harry. "I know we haven't talked since the band but I miss you.." no, I can't say that, what if he doesn't miss me? "Hi HArry, I talked to Niall and he said I should call you", no that isn't good either. Suddenly I feel how my phone strted to vibrate, I look at the screen. It said one name.

Harry.