"I Will Always Be Beside You"

I'm Sorry

Junkyu's Pov

"Kyu! Wake up your gonna be late for school." yelled my Eomma

"Arghh! I Don't want to go to school anymore! I just hate myself. Why did I even existed? Why can't I just die?" I said,while hitting myself and crying ny eyes out.

'Did Jihoon really meant what he said?' I thought to myself
'I can't go to school alone.'
'Should I tell my Eomma that Jihoon is not coming with me?'

"Kyu! Is Jihoon gonna go with you again?"

'I think I shouldn't tell her'

"Kyu? Kyu! Junkyu! Are you even listening?" Yelled my Eomma and that is when I got back to my senses

"What?" I asked

"What are you even thinking? Are you okay Kyu? Is everything okay?"

"Yes Eomma,I'm okay,everything is okay." I lied

"Promise?"

"I promise Eomma." I lied again

"Okay I will believe you this time,Buttttt! Tell me if there's anything wrong okay?"

"Okay! Eomma your so childish."

"What? We're both childish."

"That's why I love you Eomma." I said and hug my Eomma.

"So is Jihoon gonna go with you?"

"Go where?"

"To school"

'Oh! I forgot about that' I thought to myself

"Yes! Eomma actually his already waiting for me,can I go now?" and again I lied

"Of course Kyu! Bye and take care" My Eomma said and kissed me

"Bye! Eomma" I said

'I'm on my way to our school ALONE,I feel bad for lying to my Eomma so much,I don't even think I can face her when I get home.' I thought to myself

*At School*

I walked pass many student,without actually dying,I really thought that I'm about to die because of those many students I just pass by and luckily I didn't ,but I'm still panicking,I still can't calm down,my heart is beating fast,I'm having a complicated breathing.OMG! I'm shaking really bad."

"Kyu! Kyu! I'm here,please Kyu listen to me, I'm never gonna leave you again okay? I'm sorry Kyu I just overreacted that time but I didn't really meant what I said to you,I can never leave you,your my only best friend,you know that Kyu." said Jihoon

'that's when I got back to my senses and  I calmed down'

"Hyung,I-I'm sorry hyung"

"Kyu,don't apologize it's not your fault."

"It's not your fault hyung I also didn't know why I did that I-It just felt like I didn't care that time like I'm okay with it."

"Your okay with it? Your okay talking to strangers?"

"No,I-I don't know but that guy,I don't even remember his name or I don't even remember if he told me,but that's besides the point,the point is that,it feels like I'm not afraid anymore it's like I don't care if there's a lot of people,I feel different,I don't know what to say anymore maybe I'm just confuse."

"It's okay,don't worry to much okay?"

"Okay,Hyung I will atleast apologize for my behavior because I also feel bad for him and also for my Eomma,I lied to her so many times I don't deserver her love, I don't even deserve her."

"Kyu! Don't think like that you deserve everything you have including me and I deserve you too,so don't ever think about that again."

"Okay,hyung I'm sorry." I said to Jihoon and hug him

'I'm now heading to my class which is music and a few minutes later i saw the guy again but this time it didn't pissed me off,actually I'm happy that I saw him,but I really think that I went to far yesterday cause he didn't even bothered to look at me and he didn't sit beside me it just made me feel more guilty.'

"Hello and Good Moring everyone!" said our professor.

"Good Morning Sir" said everyone

"That is not the seat I saw some of you sitting yesterday,I want you all to go sit down to your respective chairs the one you we're sitting yesterday.Go! Now come on! Chop Chop! Everyone move"

'I'm now going at the last row of the chairs we're I sat down yesterday and beside,Haruto,Haruto? Oh! I remember now,his name is Haruto.I sat down awkwardly because it felt like silence take over us even though our professor is talking,I can't still hear him properly because I'm focus on how to start a conversion with Haruto the guy I just told to leave me alone but now I'm the one who will start a conversation with him.'

"Ah-Umm,Hi!" I said to Haruto,he looked at me and just ignored me

"I-I'm sorry about yesterday I-I didn't mean it,I'm so sorry I'm just stupid I-I didn't even know why I acted that way,I-I can you forgive me? Please?"

"Leave me alone!" said Haruto

            TO BE CONTINUE.......  

Sorry for taking so long again to update and here I just updated some boring chapter.