I'm In Love With, My Teacher.

Chapter 15- Anxiety

*i don't think people understand how stressful it is to explain what's going on in you're head when you don't even understand it yourself,

Sometimes I get so sad, that it's hard to breathe

So tell me how do you expect me to talk about my demons when they're sitting in my lungs,

All you can do is lie
In you're bed and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.

I feel like I can't open up to my friends about my anxiety and depression because they'll think I just want attention.

I smile, but I wanna cry. I talk, but I want to wanna be quiet. I pretend like I'm happy, but I'm not.

How do you run away from things that are In your head?

My mind is killing me, the more I try to control something, the more it controls me.

It sucks because I was getting better, and now I'm not, everything has just crashed Down On me. everything I had, now is gone...*

Layla's POV:
"Layla, you alright?" Mum opened my bedroom door, seeing me laying on my bed looking up to the ceiling. "Oh" I jumped up quickly. "yeah I'm fine" I gave mum a fake smile. "you sure?" She asked . "yeah" I lied again. she gave me a worried look and shut my door. I fell back into my bed, looking up at the ceiling "what's wrong with me?" *ding* I looked on my phone, I got a text from Luke it says
Hi, I waited for you outside but you never came out, so I went. I'll meet you at yours and show you the magazines, is that ok?"

I replied "sure"

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It was a Saturday, I looked up at the ceiling. "my life sucks" I closed my eyes, thinking of what happened yesterday .

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"Meet our new member" they said. "tori?" "How could you" I said tears forming in my eyes. "sorry Layla, but you're away all the time, Nikki moved schools..." she said. "tori doesn't like you anymore!" One girl pushed me.
The other chuckled, I looked at tori who was chuckling.

I felt abandoned, left out, all alone, with no one to talk to, by myself, no one to help me what I'm going through.

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"Layla, Layla" someone shook me. "huh" I woke up seeing Luke standing in front of me. "did I fall asleep?" I asked. "yes" he replied, "sorry" I sighed. "it's fine, I got the magazine. "here" Luke handed me it. "Woh, this is amazing, the photos look so good." I Smiled looking through the photos. "thanks, now we just have to do..is hand them to a company that can sell them, and advertise them." he said. "oh, where are you going to do that?" I asked. "Um...I think there is a building somewhere is town. I'll go there and tell you how it went,ok." he said walking out of my room. "ok sure" I said.

Lela's POV:
I really didn't know why, Layla didn't tell me about Luke, he's like 37 years old. i heard food steps running down the stairs, it was Luke. "so, why did you pick Layla?" I asked walking towards him. "well, i choose people who Pop out, like when I first see them it's like..woh.. you know. and also she gets the good looks from her mum" she winked. "oh,- thank you" I smiled blushingly. "well, I have to go, I'm going to see if I can give the magazines to a company." he smiled. "ok, and thanks for helping Layla out..she really needs it."
"No problem, see you later." he smiled walking out the door, he's a nice guy.

Layla's POV:
I whipped my phone out of my pocket and called Flin.

(On phone)
Flin- hey Layla, what's up?
Me- oh hey, I was wondering if you want to go and practice singing somewhere?
Flin- sure where?
Me- hmm... oh- how about, the park about 5 minutes away from school.
Flin- oh that one, sure meet you there.
Layla- ok bye
(Off phone)

I put on a dark red sweater over my black leggings, put on some brown boots and headed out the door.

"Hey mum I'm going to the park to meet one of my friends called Flin" I said running down the stairs, tying my hair into a high pony tail. "sure, what are you going to do?" Mum asked walking towards me with a cup of coffee. "I'm going to practice some singing." I pointed out, grabbing the coffee out of mums hands and taking a sip. "hey!" Nudged me softly. "blagh, I hate dark coffee." I said coughing.
"Ha pay back" mum said sitting on the lounge. "well I'm going, bye I'll be back at 6" I walked over to mum and kissed her on the cheek. "ok, be back before dinner." mum yelled turning on the tv and taking another sip of that dark coffee. "sure thing" I shut the door.

( 1 hour later)

Lela's POV:
It was about 5:30 and I was cooking dinner, tonight we're going to have some, fresh grilled chicken breast, with some broccoli and mashed potatoes.
*knock knock*
"Coming" I yelled washing my hands and drying them off. "is Layla going to be home early tonight?" I thought. i opened the door. "oh, Luke I didn't expect you to be here." I said inviting him to come inside. "sorry for coming un noticed, but I thought instead of calling I would come here to tell Layla something." he said Walking inside. "what is it?" I Asked. "the magazine, it got accepted and their going to be selling it in stores starting tomorrow." he said with a big grin on his face. "OH MY GOD?!, Really!?!" "We have to celebrate, how about you have dinner with Layla and I?" I insisted. "what about you're husband, it would look wired for me to be here." He said. "well, I don't have a ....husband." I said awkwardly. "Oh, sorry...." he looked a bit embarrassed. "ok, well Layla will be here soon, why don't you sit down and I'll get you a glass of champagne, is that ok?" I asked looking around for the champagne. "yeah, it's fine with me, as long as I'm not bothering you." he smiled.

Layla's POV:
I had a fun day today, well...except from this morning, but other than that it was good. Flin and I had a good practice he brought his guitar out to the park, and we practiced by a lake. I think that really helped me out, from stressing and all.

I got home and it was about 5 past 6 it was dark
And cold, so I really wanted to get inside. "mum" I called her name to see where she is. "over here" mum called me. i walked out to the dining table next to the kitchen, there was my mum....sitting next to Luke, who I work with. "hi Layla" Luke smiled. "hi, what are you doing here?" I asked walking in the room.

At first when I saw my mum sitting next to Luke...it just looked a little bit funny.

"I have big news" Luke said. "what, are you and mum going out?" I responded confusingly. mum and Luke chocked on their food, "no where not, its about the magazine" Luke looked up at me. "oh my g, what!?" I asked excitedly sitting down in front of him. "well, their going to sell the magazines to shops starting tomorrow" he said.
"What!? Oh my g, oh my g" I bounced up and down so excited to see what others say, and to think that millions of people will see my face on magazines every where.

Luke's POV:
Dinner ended and it was a great night, talking about the magazine to Layla, she also seemed really happy and excited that it came out.

"Thanks for dinner, this was fun" I smiled walking towards the door opening it. "I think we should do this more often" she looked at me. "so how's Layla doing?" I asked. "she's doing ok, she's really happy about the magazine. thanks for doing that, It really helped her out and made her happier than usual." she thanked me again. "it's fine." I smiled. "oh and sorry about, Layla before, asking if we were dating." she looked embarrassed. "I mean you're her work partner and I'm her mum and I just t-" I stopped her by pushing my lips against hers. we let go about 10 seconds later. she looked at me confusingly. "bye, thanks for the dinner" I grinned walking towards my car and driving off.

Lela's POV:
I was left there speechless, what just happened?, was this real?, Will it happen again? Wait why am I thinking about that?

Did I like Layla's work partner?
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