Bad for you

-01

Keoní

I can't believe I'm doing this. All 23 years of my life has been nothing but pain but I still managed to over come my battles.

But this battle i just couldn't defeat it even if I did put up a fight; I just didn't have the time nor energy to fight anymore. I've been on my own since I was 14 years old, my parents were some strung out dope fiends that didn't really provide shit for me but just gave me the worst child hood and abandonment issues; but still I still managed to be the same kind hearted,loveable and strong person that I am.

I had a hard knock life foreal... all my life I've been trying to find my way out. whether if it was me robbing a buss down ass fast food place or just robbing people. however those things don't got shit on to what horrible decision that I chose to provide more money.

I was pimped out by this man name saint. At first it was easy making some fast money but soon as the time was going by me and him started to get to know each other more and we ended up becoming lovers.

Now I know this might sound stupid as hell but at the time I needed the money and wasn't looking for no relationships but saint was a cool dude, well the saint I once knew.

As we was kicking it he asked me to be his girl and I said yes without no hesitation because at the time I was developing feelings for em and yes I stopped getting pimped out and moved up to the 'stay at home girlfriend role' which made me happy because I was just tired of letting men touch up all on me, but I had to do what I had to do to provide for me.

Things were perfect as hell for us until he got hooked onnat powder and that made him turn into a whole different person that I've seen before because the same shit happened to my parents.

When he couldn't get high he tend to get mad and started to beat on me, at first it was just a slap and he'll apologize for it and I'll just forgive him but shit started to get worse. he'll just hit me just to hit me to the point where I got to go to the hospital and  I'll be in there for days .

This time i couldn't do it to myself because if I get hit one more time I probably won't ever get to be on the land of the living again.

That's why when he left to go do something I planned my grand escape. I packed up all of my things, grabbed a stack of money and quickly went out the house and walked myself all the way to the airport.

I was finally free.

I'm now currently on the airplane to go to Memphis Tennessee to stay with my cousin and her boyfriend.

I missed my cousin so much; we fell off once she went to college and left the bay to go chase her dreams.

I wasn't mad at her though. It's good to have extra educational skills in something that you love to do without anything holding you back or stopping you.

My ultimate dream was to go to college too and be a surgeon but I guess some things weren't meant for me.

I was planning to find a good decent job and stack up my paper so I can go to college and be what I always wanted to be.

"Alright passengers we are here! Welcome to Memphis Tennessee " the pilot said on the intercom.

I instantly smiled at the news that I just heard.

Not even 30 seconds later the plane had landed, I grabbed my suitcase and quickly headed out the plane to try and beat all the busy people that was trying to go to their designated spot.