a hate to love Bucky Barnes fanfic

1.The Great Escape

Tw!!violence

As I sit up my body begins to ache from how thin the mattress in my cell is. I had Another nightmare..though it was more like a memory. Yeah..it was one of the things I could always remember no matter how many times they wiped me. It was a nightmare about him. The winter soldier. He and i had went on many missions together ,but he would never remember me the next time we would meet for another mission. I was always backup ,so that if anything did go wrong I would be there to save his ass. I hated being backup. But this particular nightmare wasn't about the Torture I had endured or the missions that I had went on with the winter soldier..no..this was about the day he left me. I shook my head to get rid of the unpleasant thought and rubbed my eyes as I look up at the camera in the corner of my room. 'Sigh "what time is it" I say to myself as I stretch popping my back as I do so. Just as I adjust to the bright light directly above me ,many loud knocks bang on the iron door in my cell suggesting that it was time for my handler to come get me. I get up off my bed that was conveniently bolted to the ground and begin to walk to the door. "Will I be going out today" I ask a slight hope lacing my words "Only to the training room today" said the Guard that is always outside my cell. I smiled a smile so sinister it would make even the toughest prisoners cower "excitement" I say to the guard. He chuckles "you idiot that's not proper English, it's supposed to go 'I am excited' or some shit like that" he said while unlatching my cell door. As the door fully opens I see the Guard and my handler. The guards a big man possibly 6'5 and has a nasty scar going across his top lip..he was here to keep me in check. My handler on the other hand was a smaller man around 5'5 and has a mole directly underneath his right eye..he was here to "take care of me", but most of the time that pervert would just hit me. Honestly I don't really care anymore it's not like I can feel anything. I've become numb.As my handler puts hand cuffs on me I catch the smell of tuna fish..well more like rancid tuna fish. It was his breath "oh god take me now" I thought was he began to speak. "We are going to the training room, sweet heart" I cringed at his sentence "he's so dead" I thought as I simply nodded in response. He roughly yanked me along as we made our way to the training room. While we walk I catch a glimpse of the weaponry. I also take notice of the keys that ever so slightly swing on the belt of my guard. Once we make it to the training room my handler uncuffes me as he goes  to go talk to one of the scientists in the room. At this time the only person I really needed to worry about was the guard. He knew my fighting techniques better than most. I decided to wait a few minutes before putting my master plan into work.

After around twenty minutes of "training" my guard was called to a meeting room he gave me a Stern look and said "don't do anything idiotic while I'm gone ok ,bitch". Ah, yes Another one of the fabulous nicknames they had for me I thought sarcasticly as I responded "wouldn't dream of it" i say slightly smiling. As soon as he walked out of range I made my move. Quick as a flash I took out the three scientists including the one my handler was talking to by ripping out their hearts with my bare hands.
As i did so my handler turned to face me ,a look of utter terror on his face. He had absolutely no idea what I was capable of since he was new to hydra and this made me smile. I swung at him with my fists, he surprisingly ducked and tried to run to alert the others. But I couldn't have that happen. I yanked his arm with such force I could feel it dislocate. He cried out in pain. But I had no remorse, he was a terrible person..I would go weeks without eating just for messing up once..I would constantly get beat just because I was too slow to follow an order..all of my misery was on his command..and he abused that power. In one quick movement flipped him over so that his air would get knocked out of his lungs. He looked at me with a mixture of terror and disgust. I smiled at him. "Bye now" I said as I erased him from existence by also ripping out his heart and placing all the hearts into a pile. "Five down a whole lot more to go" I said standing up and brushing my self off trying to wipe at least some of the blood off of my hands and arms. Once I get some of the blood off I look around the room and frown..I did have remorse..even though they were evil they were still humans. I looked down in shame and said a quick prayer to hopefully help their souls..and my own. I shook my head and tried to remember what my mission was all about "ok, almost done I just need to get out and take anyone whoever  gets in my way down" I said to myself again. For some strange reason over the years I had developed a habit of mumbling to myself as a way to have some form of comforting communication, but just then an alarm went off and the facility went into a state of emergency. "This should be easy" I say sarcastically. Without a second thought I swung the door open and run down endless halls till I reach a fork in the halls. left was a shit ton of guards looking for me and right was another shit ton of guards looking for me,though they were further back,but I still need to get to the weaponry ,to get supplies..and that was on the right. "Fuck it" I say under my breath as I run in. As I charge for the door one of the guards catch sight of me. Their eyes widen as they shriek for the others to look. They start running towards me but it was too late I was already in front of the door. I then with a feeling of triumph, smirk and flip them off as I slam the door behind me and lock it. I stand there for a second catching my breath looking around contemplating on what I should grab.

I looked through my options and settled on just knives, and some cash. While I was at it I change into a simple (y/f/c) hoodie ,leggings, and running sneakers. With the cash in my pocket on and a knife in hand I ready myself to go back out there. Just as I was about to open the door a series of extremely loud bangs knocked on the door of the weaponry. "Shit" I said as I looked around the room for an escape. Another set of bangs rattled the door..they're trying to break it down. I began to panic..what if they get me..I'll be killed..there won't be anymore chances..I'll be killed..or worse..locked away. Just as I was about to loose all hope a vent caught my eye. I smirk as I clime on top of a shelf that always held a crazy amount of explosives..just then a wonderful idea popped into my mined. I smiled as I grabbed a grenade powerful enough to take down an entire gated community, and shoved it not so carefully into my pocket. As I did so I lifted myself onto another shelf and popped the front of the vet off. As I did I accidentally let it fall onto to floor with a loud clang. I cringed at the noise but continued to pull myself into the vent. I had made it all the way in and began to crawl very quickly..do I know where I'm  going..no, no I do not..am I making progress yes, yes I am. As I make it to another vent I hear the guards finally break into the weaponry only to be met with silence until one of them quickly noticed the vent door on the floor. I quickly ripped the next vent open and dropped into the the next room to be met with a couple scientists which were easy to take out then also putting their hearts into a pile. This room looked to be some sort of lab. I honestly didn't care that much ,but a computer caught me eye. I decided to take a closer look thankfully it was already unlocked. Lots of files popped up "I don't have time" I said whining as I grabbed a nearby flash drive and plugged it in. As I impatiently watched it load I heard a thud come from the vent I had just come out of a couple minutes ago. "Hurry up!" I whisper shouted to the flash drive. As if it were actually listening to me the flash drive finished loading. I yanked it out of the computer and hurriedly put in in my pocket, then I smashed the computer and made a dash for the door. As I run down the halls I evade the guards and find the exit. My eyes light up as I run full speed to the door. As I push it open it feel like a weight had Been lifted off me. As soon as I make it outside I take a couple seconds to breath in the new found fresh air before turning around and setting the grenade down while pulling the pin and rolling it inside the facility. As soon as it was inside I make a mad dash for the forest surrounding the Hydra base. I run as fast and as far as I can go before the bomb went off.
As I run it explodes knocking me down. When I get up there's a terrible ringing in my ear. But as I look back at all the ruble of the now gone facility ,I smile.