Mother of Four II

Argument

Cole POV:

"Big bear,We need to talk" I voiced out capturing the daze big brother's attention.Im a slightly nervous but we eventually need to once again open up with this topic,we can never cover it up especially when the past slowly changing but the people who have involvement continue to corner us....

"Okay?Where?" Arthur agreed but with a frown on his face.Confusion is evident so as concerns...

"In Hale's room" I immediately answer as cold sweat invade my lower back...I'm bothered about everything and I don't want to carry it out all throughout our vacation.I thought hours before,it would be fine but turns out it wasnt especially when Hale once again suggestedto invite Luige in our birthday....Though it would be long before it would happen..Hidding my grievance  would only dampen my mood and miss the once in a blue moon chance to completely let go of our duties...

"Lets go" Big brother uttered in an almost whisper tone.

To which I absentmindedly nooded and only after we took a few steps forward,did I see Big bear biting his lips while I tightly clunched my fist,we have different things going through our head so we kept ourselves  silent.

Arriving at Hale's room not a minute after,I can see through Ethan's and little puddings puzzled looked.

Without uttering a word I sit down the couch,I got myself a cup of water.Ready to talked about everything,I want to just let go of this burdens...I was never a person who hold everything up to begin with and having someone to relay on,such as my brothers and Mommy leaves my heart a big signof relief..

"Big Brother Jacob..Big brother Kyle ..I want to tell little Hale about our  past memories.." In a very serious but determined voice,I called them by their old names after a long period of  4  years.

"Whatttt!...No" Big bear coldly answer.Ah this is the reason why we still weren't able to tell Hale after his discharge.Arthur hates it,he doesn't want anyone nor anything affect and leading him to confession our former lives and If I dont insist in this then simply today would count as the 30 failed attempt.But I just can't...bring myself to bottle this things anymore...

"But I want to..I need to..This is taking us so long..Can we just tell Hale so that we could think of this together?" I choked while forcing myself.I just don't want to create a misunderstanding any longer....This could broke us....any moment  or another.

"Big brother Jacob,just please listen to me,we only implicate ourselves if we continue to hide everything....Hale would hate us..we would hate each other..Mommy would get worried..." I don't want to ruined everything just because we couldn't be honest or just because of an already passed life...

However,just as I argued,I was meet with Arthur's cold but blazing eyes full of hatred..no it was not directed to me or us  but to the past he desperately want to forget..We desperately want to forget...

"Its Arthur!" He corrected me in anger..

"I never want to hear this disgusting name ever again.." Jacob,Kyle,Stiffen were given by our Nanny...She betrayed us,she thought us love and  pain of having a broken faith..

"And No! This is final,We are not gonna take Hale in this thorny past..." He said in his most serious tone while I just looked at him wide eye,unable to discourse Big brother .....So I just looked back at Big spider in plead for help or assistant but he only sign and placed his head across the sunrise window...Unwilling to talked..

Standing up in disappointment,I ran and ran in lost with my thoughts,with problems,with everything....I know its hard to open up..the man was cruel,he give us not any child could endure..Even when we reached adulthood,it still carved deep in  our bones,we are constantly hunted..Its even a miracle I live that long when I have heart disease but eventually it was used against me.....

I found myself in front of a white wooden door- my mommy's room.With red rimmed eyes,I reached out to knocked but half after a few seconds...

Yes,I am weak...extremely...and I can't help myself but relay on the very person who wasn't there before but deeply cared for us now....So I knock in the end filled with trust and belief..

*chak* "Little buns?......"
"Mo-Mommy" I weakly cried but when I saw my mother then did I realize that in front Mommy,it's much harder to spill tears..Because I always wanted to be strong in front of her.I want Mommy to grow old believing I am strong to stand up and protect her...

"My BEE...What happened to you?Are you alright?Are you hurt?Who hurt you?" Mommy fired questions after questions continously as I feel her anger knowing I was hurt...however I stay silent,organizing my thoughts

And maybe noticing my troubled expression..

"Come here,baby" Mommy stop her interrogation but called me out in worry

And as needy and obedient as I am, I comply and walked to her step by step...But before I could arrived at Mommy's present location..Mommy scope me up in one go with her thin but strong arms as I feel an  indescribable warmth....and so I cried with no restrain or strings of worry about being a manly man in front of Mommy..

*sob* *sob* "Cry My bee,Cry,let it all out" She voiced in encouragement that I silently need...

"Mommyyyyyy" I said before stretching my arms,barely rapping her neck...Drown in Mommy's unique scent..

And only after 30 minutes did I calm myself,I parted at Mommy's embrace.

She smiled at me instead of getting angry that I ruined her favorite dress...

"What's the problem,my dear?" She asked in gentleness while patting my back in soothing motion..

"I-I got into a fight....with..Big bear" I told her but not completely everything.Because Mommy would for sure punished Luige and Hale would become distant....

"Shhhhhhhh..its all right,you can still made up with your equally cute brothers after all you four are the most  considerate and kind and the best sons in the world" Mommy comically said winning a small chuckled from me...

"Are you still sad?" Mommy additionally asked..

"A little" I honestly answered,since I already cried then I shall take this opportunity as a mother and son bonding then with that thought I cheered up in happiness...

"How about we looked outside for candies or maybe visit the casino?Didn't you like playing there?" Mommy really knows me the best..Hiding my exitement I only nod but didn't realize it was 6 counted times did I do so..

"Okay lets go"

To be continued....