So Called 'Love Life'

Let us start this during my first year in high school. Having new friends and environment is the challenge how will I am going to just myself. From a small community into this big community, wherein I don't them. I don't know who they are, how they will act, and welcome me in this community. Little by little I can already adjust. I can already fit myself in the environment I have. I create a circle of friends. This year, it helps me know who is the person who is true and loyal to your friends. In this journey, I have serval number of crushes that give me the inspiration to go to school. It's part of being a teenager.

He is my classmate. He is freaking kind, handsome (in my eyesight before!), and friendly. He became my seatmate before every English time. It made me giggled. He used to borrow my ballpen, asked for a paper but he doesn't ask for my heart. Just kidding! It just lasts for 6 months. After how many days I found my new crush, he is a grade 8 student. He might be one of the campus crushes. He might be cute, quiet, and a gamer. I got so crazy. But as expected he didn't do crush back. It's sad but I need to accept it.

This is the best high school year! I found my long-time crush. He made me fall in love. He is my 4-year crush. He is so handsome, talented, sporty, and the love of my life, kidding aside! But he is my long-time crush. During the lunch break, I used to wait for him. Watch him walk and everything. Am I his stalker? He inspired me. I remember the time when he says hi to me but I did say hi because I'm so shy. But deep inside I wanted to. His gesture made me kilig. Can you bring me back at that time? Please! I want to continue our shake hands. Maybe it is true that he wants me, but I don't have any proof. My years continue. He is my crush until I turn grade 11. It is sad because there is an issue between us. I didn't do something but they throw it at me. It gives me stress. I thank God I forgot that happenings. It is a lesson. Until I turn grade 9 and grade 10, he is my crush. But sad to say he is never mine.

I finally say goodbye to my alma mater. I enter a bigger community. New school, new teachers, and new classmates. It's sad because my best friend is not with me anymore. It is glad that even though we walk on a different journey we stay being best friends. Let focus on the title itself. On the first day of school, I have a crush. Maybe not totally a crush. He just caught my attention. My life continues and I don't do crushes because I have my crush. My 4-year crush. I focused on him. He is my life but I am not his life. I have chatted with my friend when I joined a pageant. I asked for his help and that started. We used to talk about life and everything but suddenly he confessed. I don't take it seriously because I am not ready to enter that stage. But as his childhood friend, I continue having communications with him. We sometimes went home together. It's funny because I'm allowing myself to be attached to him. The time comes when I cut everything on us. I continue communicating with him as a friend.

Finally, this is the last year of my high school years. I will enter college. Before that happens, I should study hard for me to have an award. I have a classmate slash seatmate who is so talkative. I like it because someone is talking to me. He is talented too. We become partners in making our modules. Also, I have a friend of mine who also confessed his feelings. It makes me kilig because... nevermind! He gave me something that makes me smile. I love his attitude and kindness. We used to talk about life and do some late-night talks. It is not awkward because he is one of my friends.

I'll wait until you enter into my life. Cherish the moments.