My mums best friend

The funeral

Eleanor's POV

So today is the day of my dad's funeral, and honestly I don't know how to feel. He was one of my best friends, he was the one one who supported me through everything and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like a part of me is missing.

Right now we were stood watching the coffin get lowered into the ground and I stood just watching with no tears at all, I couldn't cry I just felt numb. My mum was stood next to me balling her eyes out and I just felt guilty that I didn't know how to comfort her. I broke out of my day dream when I heard my name being called
"Nellie!" There was only one person who calls me that
I turned to see Helena coming up to me and hugging me as tight as she could. I relaxed into her hug and was overwhelmed by her signature smell, I always loved the smell of vanilla it was so calming, I realised i still hadn't addressed her
"Hellie, its so nice to see you I missed you so much!"
When I was a child Helena was like my second mum she would constantly care for me and make me feel so loved, as I got older I realised I had grown feelings for her and I would always make sure to be around and give her hugs and little pecks on the cheek. We got so close, we would sit and watch Harry Potter and American horror story together although she would always get scared at American Horror story so it just meant she would cuddle me more and honestly I wasn't complaining.
It broke me so much when she decided to move away and I haven't seen her since I was 12 and I'm now 23. At first it was so hard and I went into a spiral of depression. I wouldn't eat, I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't shower and I just wanted to die. Because I felt worthless without her.

And now she was here and all my feelings came spiralling back

A/N~ idk if this is good or not I might end up deleting it tbh 😁