hi y'all!
i've been doing so well for the past bit since i last updated. this has almost nothing to do with any of the subtopics, but i got my covid vaccines, so i am all safe from covid! it makes me really happy to be able to say that!
-My Job
i am in love with my job, teaching special education has been so lovely! i love my kiddos and couldn't ask for a better school. the teachers are great, the principal is great, and so is everyone else who works there and makes the school day happen. we have been in person for the last 2 months and it has been so amazing to see the kiddos face to face instead of online. i also found out that i am rehired at this job, so i will be able to stay up in the major city of my state. eventually my gf and i plan to move, but so far we both love it up here.
-My GF
we have been together for 2 years now! being in love with someone who understands and accepts me has been all i can really ask for. she is so sweet, beautiful, and funny. i love her so much! we moved in together 4ish months ago, and ended up getting a golden retriever puppy this march! our puppy is named Nymeria (from game of thrones), but we call her Nym. nym is only 12 weeks old, a bit of a menace, but aren't all puppies?
-My Mental Health
i've been on anti-anxiety meds for the past 5 months or so, and it has really changed my life. i am more grounded, able to make it through the day, and just able to do more than i ever really have. my doctor and i have had to mess around with it a bit, but i am now on three different medications and they work well together! other than that, i would have to say that getting to see my real personality has shown a lot of ADHD tendencies and i am planning on getting that sorted out next. i've never really seen myself without anxiety in the past 12 years or so, and my whole life was taken over by that. who i am always came second or third to my mental health. now it comes first! last update for mental health, i am currently 2.5 years clean from self harm. it is always a struggle, but one i work on daily!
-My Identity
Just as an update of sorts, i now use they/them pronouns, and am openly out as queer to most people in my life. currently trying to figure out a way to come out to my parents and sister about being nonbinary and how that affects me as a person. i have never been happier in who i am than now, and i want to share that with the people i love. my gf has been the most supportive of this, using my correct pronouns, calling me "ren" of our dog instead of mom, and correcting others when they struggle.
-The Future
my future is exciting! i am a bridesmaid in my cousins wedding this summer, my job is still super fun, and i get to live with a new puppy and a wonderful gf! i hope everyone else is having such a good time! with the pandemic, i know it has been hard for a lot of people, but for me it really has helped me become a better me.
till the next time <3
