Written on: December 24, 2012
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I could break down anytime now
But I think I should first write these down
Playing it back from the very first day
When you said "hello" then ran away
I still remember what happened on March 17th
When you came in and brought the light you've lit
8 months have passed and still, I'm falling hard
I thought you felt the same way too but, now you're gone
And the light you've lit just vanished
Like the words that you said to me
And when the clock strikes at midnight
Will I still say Merry Christmas?
How can I get out of this darkness?
How can I forget the day that I confessed?
When I took all my courage to say it to you
You took a step back and left me falling for you
I miss our long old conversation, j----
I still got them on my phone, saved
I hope you know that I'm not okay
And I hope this pain will eventually end
You got me thinking that we'll be something
That someday, there'll be you and me
But now all that I see
Is I'm broken and I'm still falling
Anytime by now, it's Christmas Eve
I'm sorry Jesus, but I'm not that happy
"Merry Christmas," is it really merry for me?
Cause I just got my heart.. broken into pieces
And now, I bet you're happy with her
Happier than us, back then, before
But I hope, you two will stay forever
And I pray that one day, my feelings for you will be over
Even though we didn't end up together in the end
I hope you'd still listen to this words I'll say
I promise, what I feel for you is still true
And I'm sorry, but I lied when I said, "I'm happy for the both of you."
