To You, My Dear Heartbreaker

To: The One That Got Away

All the moments we spent were priceless. It was like winning the lottery a dozen times. Our relationship wasnt even an actual relationship. We were more of a bond. Two wholes that completely got each other. But now, its like none of that ever happened. Its as if we're strangers. Those precious moments we spent are gone. Everything we've been through doesnt matter. Its as if you've forget who i am... Who we were... and i miss that. Those tender moments were you would hold me and we didnt speak. Only we did, in a way. We communicated through our eyes. One look and a thousand words would pass between between us. Our love was expressed through little actions that our oblivious mind ignored and forgot. We let others tear the bond that had formed between us. We let rumours wnd whispers get to our minds and invade our soul. We let others control us. We threw insults and ignorant comments at each other after it was all over. Yet even now, when our eyes meet, we share a thousand words that time has incomprehensible. We've both tore each others heart up, ate it, and spit it back out. We've hurt each other endlessly with cruel words that we both know we dont mean. We bicker back and forth through our friends that have become our messengers. I've cried and sreamed because of you. But even now, after all we've been through, I would relive all those amazing moments we had. I miss them, i miss you, but most of all, i miss us. I most recently realized that you werent real. You were only showing me what I wanted to see. You knew my weakness and used it against me. Your true colors came to light after our first real fight. You yelled and punched the walls and quite frankly, scared me. You insulted me without actually knowing it. You said i didnt love you... and that was a lie. I loved you with all my heart. Yiu were my first love... the first person I uttered the words " I love you" to. You were also the first person that I had a meaningful relationship with. We didn't need a physical relationship to get along. Holding hands and hugging was enough for us. Or so i thought it was...

My dear heartbreaker, we spent many good moments together. You and I felt like Cinderella and Prince Charming. But every good thing has to come to an end. My only regret is not fighting harder against my insecurities that drove me to belive all the rumours. But then again, you didn't fight harder to keep me. And that proves you definitely didn't deserved me. So now, i wish ,that both of find a person that will make us feel happy and fill our heart with joy.

From: The One You Left Behind