Outsiders but with a little more..Drama..

Chapter 1

Ponyboy POV: I flipped through the Copy of the book Johnny left for me. I never could get to the Gallant dying.

I can't stand seeing them lifelessly dead on the ground in my head.

I miss Johnny and Dally. They just Went just like that didn't they? I feel awful on how I'm acting.

First off SodaPop running away from me and Darry fighting,next I'm flopping school. I can't seem to do things right. I want to go see Johnny. I would die to see him again. I mean it.

What do you think Dally was AIMING (pun) for? Oh well.. I climbed off my bed and Walked out the room. I wanted a cigarette. I want fresh air. I want space.

So I just walked past Soda and Darry sitting down watching some cartoon and Went outside. It was cold outside but I walked out the streets with no shoes,jeans,and a tank top. I just walked out of there like I had something to do.

Johnny Johnny Johnny. Why did you go in there with me? Why did you have to die. You had a life to live for. I'm just a spoiled kid to live. All the shelter,food I have you don't. Your always thrown away and left.

Please come back,I miss you. Sometimes you talk to me but my brothers think I'm going crazy. Whatever..I found myself at the park. The blood still stained the concrete. Johnny saved me from those Soc's. But I couldn't save him from wood? I walked over to the Monkey bars. Johnny.. I climbed the bars and sat there. I just stared at the fountain.

I cried. Not even going to deny it. I cried.
I felt my stomache give a lurch. I remember Johnny sacrificing himself. Why did you have to go in there with me? Dally why didn't you take him first?
I'm scared! I'm so scared! I looked up and saw a crowd of kids stare at me like I'm crazy. Did I seriously say that out loud? I climbed off the monkey bars and went to the lot. The sun was up,boy You better wish how bad I wanted to run.

But SodaPop and Darry would just baby sit me again. I feel guilty for everything I do there. I can't go to a Mental place. I don't want to get adopted. No. Im not going to stay adopted. I shoved my hands in my pockets feeling my switch blade In my hand. I crawled underneath the gate and swished to the lot side.

I sat there and later back. I know I can't be here for long since they would worry. But I don't want to go back. I feel like a obstacle in their way. The gang could do better without me couldn't they? Whatever Stay gold. Stay gold..