heart-throb finn wolfhard

22.

y/n's pov

a couple of months have passed and things have changed, I've changed.

I'm stuck.

even though this moment with finn feels right, I just cannot move past what happened.

he is still staying at my place with sophia after he became unconventionally broke.

things feel awkward.

uneasy.

the tension between us is the strongest it's ever been, this ache in my chest I can't overcome.

I wonder if he feels the same

tuesday july 19th.

I sit on the balcony of our apartment due to another sleepless night.

I allow the breeze to flow with my thoughts.

the silence almost feels unreal, I get lost in memories.

a quiet footstep comes up behind me,

I slightly turn my head to the back. and I notice the tall, pale, skinny boy holding a jacket as his boney fingertips shiver.

I smile at him.

he opens his mouth.

"sorry for bothering you, I just thought you might be cold." he softly says.

"oh thank you. it is a bit chilly." I accept the oversized black jacket, covering my frozen hands.

finn nods walking back to the sliding door.

"do you want to stay here with me?" I say without hesitation. 

he immediately turns around.

"oh sure." he mumbled walking back to the chair beside me.

"I have never seen so many stars in the sky before." I gaze up covering the silence.

he nods. "the moon is beautiful tonight, isn't it?" he turns his head towards me.

I look over noticing his glossy dark eyes. I feel my eyes soften leaving me speechless.

we both stare at one another without a sound.

the world felt like it stopped, and I was reminded of that feeling.

I looked down at his chapped lips, holding my temptation. but I couldn't resist anymore. 

I placed my hand gently on his cheek, allowing that sinking feeling to kick in.

slowly, I leaned closer to his face keeping my eyes connected to his.

he closed his eyes and pulled me in fully,

allowing our eager lips to touch

that feeling,

in my stomach.

my heart.

everywhere.

that feeling of true unconditional love always comes back when it is the right person.

it makes you crazy and emotional,

it tears you into pieces as you drag your heart along while it constantly gets stabbed

but you continue to fight

because it is right.

finn is right,

everything about him

reminds me why I could never love anyone the same.