Summer At The Store

Family Visit

The sun scorched down on the back deck of Chris' house. The rain of the weekend was surely over, bringing a slew of sunshine their way. Lara Jean brought her best friend's favorite SUBWAY sandwiches as payment so she could vent freely without feeling bad about it. The girls sat out on her covered patio, foot longs and lemonades in hand.

"Whoa, bring this back. You KISSED Kavinsky?" Chris adjusted her well-worn baseball cap.

"Yeah." She blushed. "And it was good... like really good."

"LJ!" her best friend squealed. "Anything else happen? Was he still soaked from the shower? Was his hair falling in his face?"

Lara Jean threw her face in her hands. "CHRISTINE! Nothing else happened. Well some cuddling, but nothing else."

"I've seen him shirtless at the pool. The boy is hot. I wouldn't blame you for going much further than kissing." She took a bite of her sandwich.

"We drove home and it was awkward with lots of tension. I told him that I didn't regret the kiss and felt like we were about to kiss again but then John knocked on the window."

"Why was he even there?"

"I don't know. He said he wanted to talk about DC." She shook her head. "We did, kinda, but then I told him I still loved Peter."

"Shit." She leaned back in her seat. "Was he mad?"

"Kind of. Not in a yell-y way. Very I'm not mad just disappointed vibe."

"He's always given me very disappointed dad vibes." She nodded. "Are you okay though?"

"Weirdly fine with it all." Lara Jean felt so mixed with how she was feeling. She wanted to mourn the loss of her relationship with John, but was nervously excited about what her future with Peter would be. She didn't want it to seem like John didn't mean anything to her, because he did. The anxiety over her next move hung over her head. Would Peter even want to take her back? He made out with her, but didn't really get the chance to share his feelings in the car other than "I know" before John showed up.

"Look at you, being all mature. So, what did Kavinsky say when you ran over to him last night? I understand why you're glowing now." She winked.

"I didn't go to Peter's last night." LJ softly let out.

"You're telling me that you, Lara Jean Song Covey, ultimate lover of big romantic gestures, didn't run over and confess your love for him, make out & live happily ever after?"

"I didn't." She blushed. "It wouldn't have felt right."

"What do you mean by that? You want to be with Peter, right?"

"I don't want Peter to think I'm choosing to him just because I'm not with John Ambrose. He deserves better than that."

Chris thought for a second and shook her head. "Well when are you planning to see him?"

"At the store tomorrow, I guess?" LJ shrugged.

"Yes. You have to keep me updated. Trevor and I are just happy and boring. This is the drama I live for. Any idea what you're going to do when you see him?"

"No freaking idea." Lara Jean smiled nervously.

Today was the first day that Lara Jean was at the store by herself. It would only be for an hour, but she took it as a sign of trust from Mrs. Kavinsky. She turned on a playlist of Motown classics and began dusting while she waited for Peter to get there. The store was dead this morning, allowing her time to think. Her hands got clammy with the anticipation of seeing him again.