i wish you were alive, still here with us. it really breaks my heart to think about what shit you've been through. with the media, the tabloids,all that, its horrible. everyone thought you were weird. it sucks. they didn't know you. only your very close friends and family. before they judged you, they should've tried hard to love you, as you said in your song, "childhood"
and dont get me started about the allegations. the disgusting, horrible, totally false allegations. you would never, EVER hurt a child. you are NOT a child molester. to those people who think so, fuck them. its really sad to think about all that you must've been through during that. the stress, the sadness, the loneliness... i feel so sorry for you.
and all the filthy rumours in the newspapers and tabloids. disgusting. the people who wrote those must feel horrible and ashamed for what they've done. if they don't, they don't deserve to be on this planet.
you were probably the most kind, generous, pure, innocent, beautiful soul on this planet earth. who would ever do this shit to you. you definitely did not deserve this. if i knew you, i would do anything to try and stop all this. even though i might be a kid, i would try my best. i would try to make you happy, to make you smile, to make you happy. but no. i cant, i couldn't.
your voice, your face, your soul, your body, just, you, you're so beautiful. and your smile. wow. i cannot believe that you didnt like it. it's so beautiful and very contagious. whenever you smiled, i smiled. whenever you laughed or giggled, i did aswell.
when i heard what happened during the set of "you rock my world" i had pure hatred for the people who told you this. (i'll just say what happened to the people who dont know)
during the set of you rock my world, someone suggested that they remold his nose and darken his skin. shortly after hearing this, michael locked himself in the bathroom and started to break everything. Frank Casio came in to find michael sitting on the floor. he started to cut his hair, so it was now short. he held his head in his hands and while sobbing said : "would you belive it? they want me to remold my nose? what the fuck's wrong with me? i dont tell them how they should be! fuck them! im a monster, im a monster.. im a monster...."
that just got me. i started crying for like 10 minutes after i read that. those people, those fucking people. one thing they have is the audacity, the au-fucking-dacity to say something like this. you were going through a lot at that time. you were quite insecure about your looks. and now this? what the fuck. they should feel ashamed, disgusted, horrible. absolutely awful, horrendous. the hatred and loathsome i feel towards them is just, ugh. im speechless. im out of breath. in a bad way, in the worst way possible.
well, putting the sad stuff aside, you did so, so much good. for everyone really. especially children. its so great. you donated more than 100 million dollars to charities. one👏 hundred 👏 million 👏,, thats just, wow. amazing.
the media never wanted to address the good stuff you did. they just wanted every single bad thing. they wanted all the horrible stuff to happen to you. and- oh god. all those totally dumbass rumous. fuck. you bleaching your skin? bullshit. you sleeping in an oxygen-rich tank? bullshit. you being gay? just more and more bullshit. but even if you were gay, it would've been completely fine. but still, its horrible what they wrote about you.
i dont know what to write anymore. its just- i dont know. i dont even know why i wrote this. i was bored? i dont remember. i just wanted to let everything out,, i think. but, im glad i did. i miss you so so so so fucking much. i love you. so much.
