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THIRD PART TO "cardigan"
JJS POV
Salt air, and the rust on your door I never needed anything more Whispers of "Are you sure?" "Never have I ever before"
We weren't sure if we wanted to do it. Well he wasn't. I was. I knew he had a girlfriend but i've loved him for the past fifteen years. I figured he felt the same. I don't know what to think. Why would I ever think it would work. I have a husband with a family. Penelope told Spencer's girlfriend because she felt bad. I'm lucky she didn't tell Will.
How could I be so naive.
But I can see us lost in the memory August slipped away into a moment in time 'Cause it was never mine And I can see us twisted in bedsheets August sipped away like a bottle of wine 'Cause you were never mine
But it was so nice at the time. Summer. It made me so happy. I love Will and I love my kids but it just made me feel alive and young. Now it makes me feel dirty. But I can still see us twisted in bedsheets. He was never mine.
It's always going to be Y/n for him. I'm happy for him but I wish I could hold him the way she holds him. I wish I could love him the way she gets to love him.
I pick up the bottle of wine. Will and the kids were out of town visiting Wills family. I didn't go because of work.
I drank half the bottle of wine.
Your back beneath the sun Wishin' I could write my name on it Will you call when you're back at school? I remember thinkin' I had you But I can see us lost in the memory August slipped away into a moment in time 'Cause it was never mine And I can see us twisted in bedsheets August sipped away like a bottle of wine 'Cause you were never mine
His back beneath the sun. I wish I could've wrote my name on it. I wish I could've called him mine. I remember thinking I had him. Oh to claim him. The feeling I had during summer was confusing. How would I word it. Carte blanch.
I drank some more.
Back when we were still changin' for the better Wanting was enough For me, it was enough To live for the hope of it all Cancel plans just in case you'd call And say, "Meet me behind the mall" So much for summer love and saying "us" 'Cause you weren't mine to lose You weren't mine to lose, no But I can see us lost in the memory August slipped away into a moment in time 'Cause it was never mine And I can see us twisted in bedsheets August sipped away like a bottle of wine 'Cause you were never mine 'Cause you were never mine, never mine
Just being with him was enough. He was all I needed. I felt complete. I canceled plans just incase he called me. He wasn't mine to loose. I cant imagine how Y/n feels right now. But maybe it was my fault for being stupid and sleeping with a man who has a girlfriend. I cant believe I did this to Will, I cant believe I did this to our family.
But do you remember? Remember when I pulled up and said, "Get in the car" And then canceled my plans just in case you'd call? Back when I was livin' for the hope of it all, for the hope of it all "Meet me behind the mall" Remember when I pulled up and said, "Get in the car" And then canceled my plans just in case you'd call? Back when I was livin' for the hope of it all For the hope of it all For the hope of it all
I wonder if he ever thinks of it. The way I pulled up. The way we did those illicit sins. It hurts so much. But why. I don't understand. I wish I didn't feel this way. Will I ever recover? I've loved him for so long. But I have a family now. What if it was different?What if I had a family with him? What if he chose me instead of her? Would I ever leave him for Will? Of course not. But the forbidden feels so good.
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okay soo yeah idk these parts were rlly short i wish i would've made them longer but i didn't so to bad
