John and Karen

Part One Meeting

Karen adjusts her glasses, she is embarrassed. She sat on the bed. The diner went badly, she didn't speak freely as they chatted online. She was dumbstruck and embarrassed.

She felt like the stupid girl in school, who had small breasts. Karen wasn't made fun of in school, but she wasn't much known. She was this nerdy girl, with the big glasses. For a fact Karen wasn't very talkative, she was secluded, her world became the console and the virtual world where she sought comfort and pleasure.

Karen almost gave up after dinner. But then she decided to see the hotel room. She was just aroused. She stared at John and just wanted to see him naked. John was actually understanding and comforting during diner. Karen thought to herself, he was just too good looking for a geek. She was mesmerized by his appearance. John looks like one of the guys in school, who would ignore her. She was not feminine enough for them. Karen's skinny appearance could never really attract boys in school.
Now she sits on the bed in a hotel room, has her legs crossed, and tries to be enticing.

"He didn't leave, he could have just walked away, but he didn't. He wants to be with me, the woman I am!"

Karen stares at John, she stifles her emotions. She has pinned her big beautiful eyes on John, she watches every move he makes. Karen changes slightly her posture. She is unsure about her femininity. She thinks about attractive poses she saw in magazines and tries to emulate these women, but she feels somehow stupid.
She is mad at herself. She never paid much attention to her femininity. The need of her body. She would only dress enticing to the Comic-Con and this was different, this was not her, only wonder women she tried to emulate. She never felt about herself as a sexual person. In her mind, her experiences in school kept haunting her. She gave up the belief that any man would be interested in her, on her sex appeal. 

But now everything was different. For the first time in her life, it was her, who was in the spotlight. Her body, her face, her personality, everything that is her, sits in that hotel room on the bed and holds her breath, and cautiously looks at the man, who decided to walk with her up to the hotel room.

"He looks dangerous! Like one of these men, who ly on top..." 🤠😎

The thought made Karen dizzy. Her mind played a sequence where John lays on top of Karen kisses her and she feels his weight on her. His hands in her hair. Like he would lose his hands in her black hair, she would be lost and entangled under this body.

"What do I do? Should I say something? Should I tell him how good-looking he is? 😬 😕

John hasn't said a word. Karen gets uncomfortable. She doesn't know whether she should say something,  or just wait for him to make his first move.

"This takes too long!" 😐

Karen loses her confidence.

"Does he have second thoughts?" 😧

Karen gets embarrassed. The same embarrassment she felt during dinner when John asked her what she would do for a living. She felt mortified because she had never thought about her life as something she wouldn't be proud of. She thought they would talk about their virtual reality story. She had prepared some lines, some funny remarks, and jokes, she would put into the conversation so that John would think of her as fun-loving.
But John didn't mention their virtual reality experience, not a word. He just asked her:

"Where do you see yourself in five years?"😳🥺

This question felt like a slap. It was not that she didn't know the answer, but:

"Who asks that on their first date?" 😵😰

Karen didn't know much about dating and John's question felt like a job application and she already failed the first question. Karen was embarrassed, she was even mad about the question.

"Is he going to start talking about how video games would be bad for social interactions?! 😤

She heard a lot about how bad video games are, especially from her mother.

👩‍🦳👉 " You won't get a man!"

Karen ignored her.
She almost would have walked out of the restaurant, but she gazed at John for a while, she felt a cold breeze. She thought about her empty and lonely home, the pizza of yesterday in the fridge was waiting for her.
She thought about how she came here, how she was thrilled to finally meet John, they were married and had children already, virtually, but it doesn't matter to Karen.

"We became intimate ... "

She glanced at John, he was muscular. She stared at his body with craving. Karen didn't think that she would have sex with John. Sure they made jokes about that, but they were geeks, they talk and wait until things seem to fit in and the right opportunity reveals itself.
But during diner Karen thought about sex. Her mind was flooded with sexual images. Her mind played a scene where John would have sex with her in the restaurant in front of everyone. She is not this kind of woman, but John was so tempting.
Whenever John would ask her something she would not know how to respond, a sex scene would pop up in her mind. In one of the scenes, she would get up, undress herself and sit on his lap.

"Stop asking me thinks I don't know!

She wanted to walk up to the hotel room. She needed  to, her mind was already playing the sex position on the bed in the hotel room.
She needed to find out, she needed to see the hotel room with her eyes.