"Oh my, you're so beautiful!"
"Your grades are so good! My children could never do that. Haha!"
"Why don't you come over to my place later? Oh, you can bring your sister along if you want."
As usual, the princess in the spotlight and the invisible wretch in the dark. All the attention and love will always belong to the princess, and the shadow will be alone. Forever. That is how fairy tales go right? Well, this is not a fairy tale. This is my life.
Why won't people think of me? Why can't they see me? I am right here! Please! Somebody! I'm right here! Those desperate calls, those cries and shouts were always ignored. Nobody ever saw the burning fire inside my heart nor did they see the agony I was suffering.
The overpower of a shiny diamond is more valuable than its source, the metamorphism of coal. That exquisite and lovely sparkling diamond is my twin sister and I am the dull unwanted and unwelcome piece of coal, 'Why aren't we treated the same?'
Simply, there was no way to change it. No matter what I did or how hard I tried, nothing would ever change.
Tomorrow is her 18th birthday ceremony. Mine too, but that is not important. Many royal members will be coming over to celebrate her birthday, share a drink or even a dance.
Honestly, if I were not her sister, I too would love to be around her. She has beautiful eyes as blue as the deep sea, the feminine and cute face she has, the perfect slim and curvy body, the respectful and cheerful personality, a perfect born person. She is blessed with all these aspects while I am the total opposite...just how can twins be so imperfect?
I never hated her, I still do not, and I never will. That night when I was 9 years old, I regretted fuming at her and promised myself to love her no matter what. Losing control of bearing all the mistreatment I raged and unleashed all anger from my heart and smashed everything in front of me like a monstrous storm.
After I relieved myself tears flooded my cheeks and collapsed weeping. Till the end, she remained calm and continued listening to my complaints. A sudden warmth that I have never felt in so long have embraced my body and soul. Her kindness and tenderness made me realise how much we love each other and that she is the only person out there that I needed.
But she long changed. She is not the girl who smiles with all her heart and cheers up anyone who speaks to her. She is no longer the girl who would hug and comfort you. She changed. The fake smile she holds for attention, the sweet and innocent image she gives just to stay loved.
She is afraid...
Afraid of losing all the love she owns and afraid of me getting jealous, leading my heart to corrupt and steal all the attention from her. But that does not matter, today is my sister's 18th birthday and I will be there for her no matter what.
