TW: ED, Depersonalization
today i started intermittent fasting, not bcz i want to lose weight (i do deep down inside lol), i was just curious how it goes or something. i've had binging episodes for 2 weeks, im trying to recover by myself. i think im doing good. i've been kinda slutty for some time but i'll cleanse myself this week lmao. im tired of it. anyways i really need to study but i have no motivation to do. i am watching romeo+juliet now, idk if americans made it good or not i can tell im in love with leonardo. and the love that mentioned in the movie is amazing but kinda weird? idk. juliet is 13 and romeo is 16-17. bruh-
ive tried to spend today eating healthy as much as i can do and i believe ive been kinda successful. proud of myself. hopefully i'll be like that in the upcoming days.
i dont feel like myself, as if it's somebody else's body and my soul is living in it. even i dont feel like it is my soul anymore.. i really dont consider myself as a real person. everything is disappearing, falling apart. im losing myself. like i watch my life on a screen and have no control.
song: sweater kittens - broken ribs 🪦
