Wrong Decisions

The first step into the wrong direction

Naruto is staring at a crying Sakura. He just can't look at her face, when she's looking so sad. His heart cracks at the sight of her. Yeah he's happy with Hinata and he couldn't imagine a better mother then Hinata for his kids. Boruto and Himawari, the fruit of their love. The proof of the love, the two of them share.

But if he takes a glance at Sakura's crying face, he asks himself, if he would be a better husband for her. The love he had for her was real, even if a lot of people thought that it was just a childish crush. Immediately the words of his mother goes through his head.
Find a Girl like me.

She's strong like his mother, brash like his mother, loud like his mother, lovely like his mother, aggressive like his mother, combative like his mother, caring like his mother and just as lovable.

Is the thought alone considered cheating ? No Hinata would never consider that as cheating. She's a good person and she would surely understand his train of thoughts.

Back to the problem. So he really tries listening to Sakura's rambling about Sasuke, Sarada and her worklife. But if she's so unhappy why wouldn't she change something? It's so easy, so why does she insists on making her life harder then it is?

She has the choice. She can divorce Sasuke. Be stricter towards Sarada. Cut some work. So why don't she try to relieve some of the problems? In his opinion all of this is her own fault.

„Sakura I really try to understand your problems but I can't follow you, ya know?" Sakura looks up, puzzled.
She has a glare on, as she asks „Naruto did you not listen to me?".

He gulps as he understands how wrong his wordings sound. So he looks her dead in the eyes and murmurs „Sakura your problems are amendable. You don't need to play the strong one all the time. You have solutions for your problems."

That got Sakura pretty shocked, because of all the things she wanted to hear, that was not one of them. She really wants to know why he would say something like that, when he clearly knows, how vulnerable she is right now.
She needs to leave his office because she don't want to be confronted with this. If she doesn't leave, someone will get injured. And she's sure it wouldn't be her. So she does the only right thing.

Leaving him there as she darts off, but not before saying aloud "I thought your feelings for me were gone, and i really hope I'm not imagining things. Don't think, that if I ever leave Sasuke, you would be my second chance".

So after the argument Naruto sats there alone, in his office and the only thought is, if this whole ordeal really happened. Why would Sakura think so lowly of him? He wouldn't switch Hinata just to be with Sakura. Or would he? Maybe he would, but just to make Sakura feel better.
The love he holds for Hinata is real and Hinata knows it too. He don't need to prove it to anyone. But for him, Sakura's happiness matters too, cause he grew with her and she was his love for a long time too.

He just wish she would know where her place in his heart is. He would do anything to make her happy. And in his opinion, she should be happy too, cause as everyone knows, nobody gives a fuck about her wellbeing.

Not even Sasuke or her daughter..

She's really ungrateful if he thinks about it.
With these thoughts plaguing his mind, he lets darkness consume him, as he slowly close his eyes, to take a short nap.
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The only thing Naruto remembers as he wakes up, is the heated discussion between Sakura and him.
He tries to make out where he is, because it's definitely not his office. It looks more like the hospital? But what happened at his office after taking a nap? And why is he lying in the bed as if he was hospitalized?