Wrong Decisions

The first encounter

Not one day goes by, where Hinata is not plagued with all these dark thoughts. Neji is always on her mind and she has no other choice. He's even hunting down her dreams to be the nightmares, she's afraid of.

Hinata just want to sink further into the bathtub. Maybe then, God would decide to end her life. They would be together again. Come to think of it.. she would see her mother and uncle again, too.

She's taking a deep breath to calm her nerves. The new bath supplements are not really working. Why would they state, that the smell of it is soothing, when it's not?

Her father told her that even if someone dies, they will always be here, among the living. They will live inside your mind and heart. But how can her brother live there, when she's not even remembering his smell?

She thinks that maybe, she will remember his eyes through some of their other clansmen, but not even one of them has the same shade of eyes like him. No one will compare to him and his courtesies.

Is this what her father was going through, when his wife died? No wonder he got colder towards them after her death.

Is this what her father was feeling when his twin brother died? No wonder he hates her guts, after all she was the reason for his death too.

Maybe it's her purpose. To lure people into their deaths. She didn't want all of that. What horrible thing did she ever do, to earn this grief? Maybe if the kidnapping as a kid had succeed, everyone would be at a better place. Happier, without her trying to break everything and everyone she comes across with.

Just for a moment she imagines how everything would be, if she were in Neji's place. Her father would be happier. Hanabi wouldn't be sad, like she is now. Her clansmen wouldn't lose their hope on ever banning the cursed seal.

Tenten, Lee and Gai wouldn't be depressed. And the guilt she's currently carrying on her shoulders, would disappear. Everything would be better.. better than the present she's living in now.

Perhaps her Team would mourn her.. but wouldn't they be happier to lose the weight of her weakness? She's never a help, always a burden. That was her purpose since she was born..

She needs to get out of the bath, before she gets a panic attack.
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Just as she promised, Sakura came earlier to spoon fed Naruto some ramen. They're delicious just as always. It's feeling a little intimate, because they're alone in the room.. and she's feeding him ramen.

His childhood rushes before his own eyes. Yeah he didn't even remember some of the things the two of them got through in their childhood, but it has a nice nostalgic feeling to it.

"Uh thanks Sakura. Ya know, thought for a moment that I would never ever see those Ramen again!"

That earned him a hearty laugh from Sakura. Yeah he's still funny.. like always. She's happy that the war didn't change his personality. That was her biggest fear.

"Just eat up Naruto. I think you will get some visitations today."

Huh? Does she know who ? He thinks back to the other past he already got through. No one comes to his mind. Maybe the future is altering, before he even gets the chance to do everything right.

That was what he wanted to do right? Do things better. Letting Sakura now that Sasuke would not be the right one for her. He still can be with Hinata. But his priority now will be Sakura. He will need to be as discreet as possible, before anyone catches up.

He didn't even know when Sakura and Sasuke started to date. What if they already are a thing? It could be possible that he's to late already, for the whole plan to succeed.