I Love You Guys, but You Guys Don't Love Each Other (a todobakudeku story

The last option.. or not?

Hey! So I've had those idea for a while and I'm gonna try my best to do this, I'm not that good of a writer though and might have slow updates so be ready for that. ALSO! PLEASE PLEASE READ THE DESCRIPTION FOR TRIGGER WARNINGS!!!!!!! Thats all, enjoy! :)

Todoroki's POV:
BEEP BEEP!!! Another Friday morning, the good thing was that it was the weekend I suppose. I had been awake for a while, when it comes to sleep I either can't or I can and will wake up super early (same man, same). I finally mustered the strength to get my ass up and went into the bathroom to get ready. "SHOTOOO! ARE YOU AWAKE!?!!" My father yelled at me, I don't know if I can even call him that anymore honestly. "Yeah I am!" I yelled back, but I made sure it didn't sound too loud but loud enough for him to hear, didn't want to get lectured about talking back at 7am. I got changed and went downstairs to my father at the door, ugh I know what he's gonna say.. "You will use your fire today in training. Got it? You only use your ice when in danger." Yep, knew it. "I will" Was I actually? Ha no. I never do I just tell him that. "Good. Now get out before you're late." "Ok, bye." And with that I left the house. Endeavor had never learned from him mistakes, he was still the same bitch he was when I was a kid, that's why I'm happy I decided to stay at the dorms this weekend. It's my classmate, Kirishima's, birthday and he wanted to have a dorm party. I'm surprised I was allowed to go too- I'm pretty sure endeavor was drunk when he said yes but works for me. I got to the school soon enough and to no surprise Iida was the only one in the classroom. "Hey Iida" "Greetings Todoroki, how was your morning?" "It was good, how about you?" "Good too, thank you for asking!" We started a conversation about school work, which was actually kinda helpful considering I was bad at the subject we were talking about, the class started to file in and two of my classmates caught my eye. I mean- I wasn't hard to notice them cause one was yelling at the other but even if they weren't I still probably would have noticed them. See the people I'm talking about are my classmates Katsuki Bakugo and Izuku Midoriya. I've had a huge crush on them for a while now, there was a problem though, they kinda hated each other. I know I have no chance, but I still love them... "Todoroki?" Iida spoke up, I had zoned off. "Oh uhm- sorry, I spaced out.." "It's okay, just try to pay more attention when class starts" "Okay"  Aizawa walked into class and started it, it was just some notes, nothing too hard today thankfully. Last night I had a 'training session' with my father and got kinda beat up, but it wasn't the worst, I'm just tired. I tried to pay attention but my eyes kept darting between the blond and green haired males. How are they so pretty? I wish they liked each other.. if they did I would have at least some hope of being with them.. but no.. the moment I realized I zoned off again was when I was staring at Bakugo and he glared at me.

Bakugo's POV:
Why the hell is he staring at me? I shot a glare at him to get him to stop, I can't have him distracting me from becoming number 1. He mouthed sorry to me and started writing.

Todoroki's POV:
Oh shit shit shit I messed up uhhh just pretend to write like nothing happened oh my god he probably hates me stay calm stay calm it's okay- not really but it's okay, just stay calm, no one saw. (Bro I am really making Todoroki kin me rn lmao) The bell rang for class to end. Should I go up and say sorry? Probably, oh wait. Bakugo and his squad, they call each other the Bakusquad but I don't know how but Bakugo likes that nickname, anyways they had already left in a pack. Great, I just fucked up everything. "Hey Todoroki!" I heard a voice from behind me and kinda jumped a bit, then heard the cute nervous giggle that was unmistakably Midoriyas. "Sorry for scaring you, I just wanted to ask if you wanted to sit with me, Uraraka, and Iida for lunch?" He smiled, it's so cute when he smiled. "Yeah sure" I smiled slightly, I was gonna get to sit with one of my crushes at lunch- wait- I'm gonna get to sit with one of my crushes at lunch- aaaaaaa. "Great! Let's go!" He waved over Uraraka and Iida and we all walked to the cafeteria together. Uraraka and Iida had started a conversation with each other, it was obvious they liked each other, I don't know why they just don't date already. Not my business though. We got to the cafeteria and sat down at a free table, everyone got out their lunches, I didn't have one, not did I really want to eat. "Where's your lunch Todoroki?" Midoriya asked me. "Oh I had a big breakfast this morning so I'm not hungry." "Oh okay!" He bought it, truth be told I never had breakfast, I just lost appetite until late at night a while so I really wasn't hungry. Midoriya started to mumbled and ramble about something, I wasn't really listening I was just nodding my head and agreeing to anything he said. Lunch ended soon and we went to English. God I hate this class so much. No offense to Present Mic, but he's really loud, it reminds me of my father yelling kinda.. like he's not yelling at us it's just really loud like he is. Plus it's the last class of the day so I have to go back to my home/dorm with that mindset. It kinda sucks. Once everyone was in the class earplugs went around, even with them it was still loud as hell, and once everyone got them in Mic started class. Why is he so loud? Cant he quiet down for once? I could feel my leg bouncing up and down under my desk, now was not the time for an anxiety attack. I picked at my nails to try and calm myself, when that didn't work a drew. It was a vent art, they help me calm down. This class always feels the longest but it finally ended, I tried to go to my dorm room but Midoriya, who was in my class, stopped me. "Hey Todoroki" he looked, concerned? "Yeah Midoriya?" "I noticed your leg was bouncing a lot in class.. are you okay? You just seemed really nervous- sorry if I'm wrong" So he saw.. great. "Uhm yeah I'm fine, Mic's just really loud" Wasn't a completely lie? I guess. "Oh okay! Just wanted to make sure, what are you doing tonight?" "I'm just hanging in my dorm, I have a lot of homework" "Alright! I'll see you tomorrow?" "Yep, see you later" We waved goodbye and I went back to my dorm. I was so tired so I just flopped on my bed and went on Tik Tok, that was until I got a text.
Father Bitch🖕
WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU SHOTO!?!!?! YOU SHOILD HAVE BEEN HOME A HOUR AGO!!!!!!!

And he forgot what he said, obviously.

Shoto🔥❄️
You said I could stay at the dorms this weekend, it's my classmates birthday.

Father Bitch🖕
I NEVER AGREED TO THAT!!!!!!!!!

Shoto🔥❄️
Yes you did, you were drunk though
*1 attachment(video of endeavor saying yes to it)*

Father Bitch🖕
Fine. BUT YOU ARE DOING EXTRA TRAINING WHEN YOU GET HOME!!

Shoto🔥❄️
Okay.

Knew that would happen, glad it's over though. Wait no shit- my phone died, can this day get any worst? I put my phone on the charger and looked up at the ceiling, thinking. Overthinking anything I did that happened today. Bakugo's glare seemed pretty serious, he probably hates me.. which means I have no chance with him even if I tried oh great brain wait to bring me down more. And Midoriya noticed me stimming, he probably thinks I'm weird.. he did seem concerned though, but it could have been fake for all I know.. which would mean the same thing as Bakugo.. I have no chance at all...

Bakugo's POV:
I'm trying to do my homework but I can't get that damn iceyhot bastard off my mind. Oh my god why the hell can't I!? Was it because I glared at him? But why would I care about how mean I am to someone? He did look kinda worried? No sad- no not sad I can't describe his look damn it! He just looked off! Wait why do I care!? Ughhh stop thinking about this and focus on school!!!!

Midoriya's POV:
I wonder why Todoroki looked so anxious in English today? He said that Mic was loud but he always is and most of us are used to it by now, plus we have earplugs. Maybe he just has sensitive hearing? I don't know, I want to help I'm though, he should feel comfortable in the class. But how? Maybe if I- wait what was I about to think- no, no Izuku get that out of your head he wouldn't want that- but how do I know- no!

No ones POV:
As Bakugo squabbled with his mind he came to a conclusion, 'what if.. I like him? No no I can't like him, I don't like him, but he is kinda cu- NO BRAIN SHUT UP!'

Izuku also had an squabble with himself, and came to the same conclusion, 'I mean I've been debating it for a long time- but he wouldn't want to be with someone like me, would he?'

More self arguing and they both decided on something, 'I do have a crush on him.. I need to tell him before it's too late!'

Actions led to more actions, overthinking led to more overthinking and Todoroki found himself sitting on the floor, with a razor blade next to him and blooded arms..

Todoroki's POV:
What am I even doing here..? What is my purpose..? The two people keeping me alive hate each other, and they probably don't even like me.. I have no where to go after this weekend that is safe, nothing to live for.. I looked over at a bottle of pills on my desk, I had just filled it yesterday so there has to be enough.. right...? Should I do this? I mean, what do I have to lose..? I reached for the bottle and put it next to me, and grabbed a paper and pencil. My last words to the world were written on this paper, the time has come.. I'm no use anymore. I took all the pills and downed them, I felt my vision starting to go and then suddenly.. everything was black.

And BOOM! CLIFFHANGER HEHE >:) The next part will probably be posted soon so yeah, I'm in a writing mood lol. I hope y'all liked it and remember to drink water, get some food, and sleep if you haven't! <3
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