should i? Lee Hooni x Fem! reader

oh god

⚠ sexual assault / rape⚠ 

if you do not like this i will put a warning up so that you can skip :)

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Y/N P.O.V

I jolted up, screaming . I was coated in sweat and my vision was still blurry from a mix of not being used to the light that was poorly pouring in and the tears that were still present from when i was asleep. I was attempting to try to remember what had made me wake up like this, then it hit me harder than the one chick from the beginning of high rise invasion hitting the ground from several stories up.

~~~11 years before~~~

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"w-where are you taking me!?" i could feel my eyes tear up as i was screaming at the man who was dragging me away from my mother and father limp, bloody bodies.

"im taking you somewhere specieal to give you something"

"i-i dont want it. Let me go. Let me go!" i tried to fight back by pushing him away by kicking him by anything i could do to try to get away from the destination that i could now make out in the distance.

I pushed him down and started running.

he got up and chased me.

i tripped.

he didn't.

he was fast and quickly caught up to me, making sure to grab me and pick me up in a way to where i could not move.

i started wriggling around hoping to get free from his grip.

i didn't.

i could hear him say a string of course words that i have only ever heard when my parents got mad and faught with each other, which happened to be quite often. we finally arrived at an old run down...shack? 

he threw my onto the old bed that was laying on the floor. I could see him start to take off his clothing....peace.by.peace.

My eyes grew wider as i relized what was about to happen. I scooted my body backwards till i hit a wall and couldn't go further. i gasped as he started coming closer while only in his dark blue boxers. I tried to hide as much of my body as possible as i closed my eyes. I could feel his presence getting closer to me. I flinched as a cold bony hand touched the end of my shirt to lift it up.once it was off i covered my self as he took the rest off. I became extremely embarrassed and covered my face as i started crying even harder than before. He started groping me and I had yelled something along the lines of " MOM, DAD WHERE ARE YOU! HELP" he grabbed my hair that was still messy from tripping and it falling out of the ponytail and pulled my head back. He got close to my neck and whisperd just eneouph so that ,even if we were alone, only i could hear.

"your mommy and daddy are gone. and its all your fault"

my eyes went wide i could feel the smirk he had plasterd on his face on my lips. 'what is he talking about? none of this is my fault! how could it be my fault!? ... its not my fault...right?'

He once again spoke.

" im not gonna lie im a very weak guy. if you hadnt froze up when you saw me and grabbed a weapon then maybe you guys would all be together. right. now."

I could feel my whole body go limp. i couldn't move and all i could think about was how everything was my fault and that i could have prevented it. My whole mind was so crowded that i couldn't even feel the pain of what was happening while i basically let this stranger have his way with me.

~~~Present time~~~

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"...oh my god..." i could feel my eyes burn with hot tears. The next thing i knew i was basically wailing as loud as possible. a few minutes later i heard a soft knock at my door. i tried to ignore it but then i heard a small creek and saw my door open slowly. and then i heard it, the best thing that ever happened to me...

" (y/n)? i- its Hoonie. i heard a scream and then i heard you crying and i just wanted to make sure your OK. That's what friends are for...r-right?"

~~~A/N~~~

hey wassup my lil hoonie kinnies. alright so i know this chapter is kinds sad but hopefully the next one will have to fluff in it!! alrighty then (said like Ace Ventura)

Till next time!!!

-Author~Chan