Riley's Phrase (An Epistolary)

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Gino Buiser

4:36PM

Riley:

Salamat sa pag-intindi. Gusto ko lang naman talagang mag explain sa nangyari dahil baka naguguluhan ka. Dati ko na kasing naramdaman ang nasa posisyon mo, kaya. Hope it helps your feelings put at ease.

Siguro dahil na rin sa, puro ka biro, I don't know how to approach the feelings you're showing towards me. Hindi sa sinisisi kita ha, sinasabi ko lang kung anong nakikita at nararamdaman ko kapag binibiro mo ako. I can't take it seriously and a joke at the same time so I ended up laughing to show both different emotions, laughing because it was a funny joke and laughing because it was heart melting pick up lines.

Gino:

Siguro kasalanan ko rin naman kung bakit ganan ang tingin mo o nararamdaman. Palagi kong dinadaan sa biro. For real, I must admit it to myself that I am scared to confess my feelings in a serious way. Siguro takot ako sa rejection kaya ganoon. It ended up confusing your feelings too.

Pero totoo ako sa nararamdaman ko, Riley. Gusto naman talaga kita, hindi ko lang talaga alam kung paano ko ipapakita at sasabihin.

Umabot ako sa puntong natorpe at sinunod 'yung mga payo nina Duke na puro may halong katarantaduhan.

Pero alam mo? sobrang saya ko kanina kasi sinabi mo saakin 'yung side mo tungkol sa naabutan ko noong nakaraan. Kinain ako ng nararamdaman kong takot at lungkot nung makita ko kayo ni Jaro.

Napaisip ako doon eh. Naikumpara ko pa ng palihim ang sarili ko sa kanya. Sino ba namang hindi, 'di ba? mas nauna mo siyang nagustuhan. Sabi ko sa sarili ko nung bumalik siya, hindi na ako magugulat kung magkakagusto ka ulit sa kanya.

Riley:

Bakit hindi naman ako mag eexplain sayo? I know how it feels to be in that situation, gaya ng sinabi ko, naranasan ko na 'yan.

No one asked but when we're still first years, I've always adored Jaro. I see him as someone older than me and a matured guy. I don't know how my feelings for him took a year when he's literally ignoring me and he only sees me as a junior. But things changed when he showed his hopes for me. Hindi ko alam kung friendly gesture ba iyon o ano pero para sa akin, naging hope ko 'yon.

Hindi ko na matawag na chase 'yon kasi parang nag-papaabot naman kasi siya. Kaso, noong may event sa school, nakita ko siya sa likuran ng building accidentally, it was the same as you saw, may kayakap siya. Masyado akong immature noon at nahulog ng sobra kaya ayon, I ended up crying for the situation I saw and I never had the answer, kaya sinabi ko sayo.

Gino:

Hindi naman siguro masama kung itanong ko kung bakit mo sinasabi saakin 'to, hindi ba?

Riley:

You know, after Jaro left me without any explanations, leaving my heart with much questions and broken, I promised to myself that who ever confessed to me, I'll take care of their hearts and treasure their feelings.

Gino:

Rye??

Riley:

I have a question, Gino.

Gino:

Kinakabahan ako at nag-tataka. Pero ano 'yon?

Riley:

Will you give me a chance and let me treasure your feelings towards me?

seen.