Keeping Up With The Carlile's

Chapter 4

Alan smiles and kisses me softly. His hands go under my shirt so he can rub my stomach. I smile up at him. I kiss him and shove him on the bed. He smiles and gently pushes me away. I look at him and he raises an eyebrow.

"It could hurt the babies Abby." he sighs

"Not if you're careful."

"No. I'm not going to hurt them."

"Alan listen to m-" I say but he cuts me off.

"NO ABBY! THEY ARE MY CHILDREN TOO AND I DON"T WANT TO HURT THEM!" he yells at me.

"Al-"I say softly.

"Get out. I don't want to see you right now." I sit there looking at him for a few minutes "I SAID GET OUT!" he screams again. 

"Alan I was going to sa-" He grabs my arms really hard.

"ABBY LEAVE!" his grip is so tight it leaves red marks.

I walk out the door but before I leave, I say "I was going to say sory, but if this is how you're going to be than I don't want you around our kids."

I get in my car before he can say anything. As I drive away I realized, I have no where to go. My father hates me, my boyfriend just kicked me out and my mum was with Austin and everyone else in Hawaii. I find a hotel and stay there for the night. Alan didn't even call me. Not once. That was the first time in six months I had slept alone. It was one of the longest nights of my life.

I wake the next day  to see what Alan had said.

Abby where are you?

Tears come down my face and I reply:

Doesn't matter you kicked me out. Even after you said you'd be there every step of the way.

A few seconds later

Abby come on. You're seven months pregnant. You need me.

That pissed my off more than anything else

THE ONLY THING I NEED IS A BOYFRIEND WHO DOESN'T GET PISSED BECAUSE I'M PREGNANT AND HORNY! I TRIED TO SAY SORRY BUT YOU WOULDN'T LET ME! NOW IF YOU NEED ME, WHICH CLEARLY YOU DON'T, I'LL BE LOOKING FOR HOUSES SEEING AS I DON'T HAVE ONE ANYMORE!

 I shut my phone off so I wouldn't be bothered by him. After looking at twenty houses I choose six bedroom house with eight bathrooms. That's close enough to vist mum and Austin, but far enough away that Alan won't find me. I go on twitter to see that Austin and mum are back. They want me to come over. So I do.The first person I see is Alan.

He opens his mouth to say something,but I cut him off, "I don't want to hear it. You kicked me out when I had no where to go. What happens when the babies are born and you do that? Alan..."

Alan pulls me close and kisses me "I want to be in their lives. I fucked up big time and you don't know how sorry I am. I know things won't be the same and for that I am sorry, but give me one more chance?"

I nod my head "I'll give you another chance, but you have to earn the status 'boyfriend', ok?"

Austin helps me pack my stuff from my father's house and takes it to the new one. Claire was trying to get all over Alan, but he shoved her off. A month later Ryan and Rebekah were born. Alan was there the whole time. They had his hair and my eyes. Rebekah was a daddy's girl. She'd only let Alan hold her. Every night before they fell asleep I'd sing Safe and sound to them.

I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Alan would leave after they fell sleep because he didn't live here. That was my choice. Plus they were so little they wouldn't know anyways. One night Alan begged me to let him stay. So I did. We got so wasted that we both woke up naked and assumed the worst. He didn't wear a condom. So I ended up with another baby. I was so pissed and Alan was so happy. 

We told my mum, Austin and my father. Claire had her son. Still named after Ryan, but I still agreed to go to their wedding. Mum agreed to watch the twins while Alan and I went to the wedding. Claire's dress should have been worn to a strip club. During the after party she was all over Alan. My father had left for a few minutes. That's when she told me....during the time that I made Alan prove he wouldn't hurt me again, he had been messing around with her.

I turn my head away from her and walk over to Alan. He smiles and kisses me. I didn't kiss him back, "Babe, what's wrong?"

I look up at him "Did you sleep with Claire?"

He hesitates before answering "I-I was....really...drunk. Abby I-"

"Don't fucking say it!" My fist hit his face hard enough it'd leave a dark bruise.

Alan tries to grab my arm, but I'm to far ahead of him. When I get in the car he calls me. I'm crying to hard that I can barley see the road. I answer it though.

He's crying,I can hear it in his voice "Abby please. I'm so sorry."

"Yeah, well you must not be to sorry because if you were, you-"

The last thing I remember was my car going off the road and my body going through the windshield.  I was awake for a little while. Long enough to hear Alan asking what was wrong. After that everything was dark. It  feels like it's been forever, but light shines through. I see Ryan. Not my son, but my brother. He's smiling at me.

"Abby!" He yells and runs towards me.

"Omg Ryan! I fucking missed you so much!" I cry as I hug him tightly.

"I love you. Tell Candi I love her too." 

I look at him "What?"

"You can't stay." He sighs.

That's when Mitch appears "It's not your time!" He lucker stomps me back into my body.

I am once again surrouned by darkness. When I open my eyes my family is surrounding the hospital bed, that I'm laying in. It turns out I had been out for months. My stomach was so swollen I couldn't see around it. I couldn't help but smile at it. Alan walks in and asks if I have woken up yet. Austin tells him to 'see for yourself". He walks over and the baby kicks. Everyone leaves so that we can be alone. They all head down to get lunch.

"Don't. This is the first time I've been awake in months." I say bitterly to him.

"Abby I was wasted ok! It doesn't matter." He says softly.

I shake my head at him "It does to me. You know how much I hate her!"

He grabs my hands and I pull away "You better spend these last few months with our kids because as soon as this baby is born...I'm leaving state. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm getting away from you."

Alan shakes his head "Abby I'm not letting you leave." he get's down on one knee "Abby I can't live without you. I know I'm a fuck up, but I am the father of your three babies. I want to be in there lives and yours. Will you marry me?" Alan pulls out a big diamond ring.