Today was the day that she leaves for France. I can't believe she leaving. I been bawling my eyes out but my boy Chris has been here for me. We went out in his truck just to ride around I love his tuck. But when I get my Ram rebel he will be so mad when I showed him the first time he got so mad. LOL!!!!!!!!!! Chris is the only person cheering me up right now everybody else doesn't know what good by on. Chris is the only person who knows what's going on and I think that's the best for now because the more the people know the more drama and stress that would fall on Zoe. Me and Zoe was talking to one another yesterday she told that things are going great and they are settling in perfect and that she misses me so much. I told that I miss her to that its been so hard without you here. When then began to talk about all the memories we had together. I began to cry because we had created so many memories together. I began to see how strong the feelings I had for her were . I couldn't take it any more I wanted to tell her right then and there but Chris called. I had to answer because he been there for me so I can back out on him. It was his relationship now that is in jeopardy him and his girlfriend were fighting. At that moment I knew tonight is not the night. I told Zoe good night and blew her a goodnight kiss I told her I hope it teaches you by morning. After we hung up I called Chris back to ask him what's going on. Chris and his girlfriend Shy has been fighting every since school started. They began going out the second week of band camp. It was stressful because they would come to me with all of there problems and it was worth it because Chris is my brother from another mother. When I was sick with my hernia Chris came and saw me in the hospital. He was the only one of my friends to come up there and see me. It was so nice I couldn't believe that he came up there. That why I couldn't ignore the call. Anytime he calls or text I won't ignore it.Thats my main nigga.
Flash back to the night Zoe left!!!
I want Zoe to stay with all my heart but it's not going to happen. I am scared what life's going to be like having all that regret. Just know that she will never know. Chris knows how I feel completely. Zoe came to my house to tell me bye I gave her big long her and stared her in the eyes. It felt like for ever I wish it was for ever. Seeing her getting in the car and driving away that's when it truly hit me. I just started bawling my eyes out. Then my boy Chris pulled right up and was there for me he even spent the night. I really needed someone to talk to and he was there. Chris is my brother that I never had.
