Bakudeku/Katsudeku one shots ♡＾▽＾♡

"Number one hero"

Hey!
I'm egg :)
I hope that you'll enjoy my first one shot.
(I may edit it later or just add some details, so stay updated)
Oh, and let's forget the manga plot for a moment ┑(￣▽￣)┍ 
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The sun is setting down, slowly disappearing behind the horizon
Sakura trees are blossoming as some petals are falling out, peacefully settling down on the ground.
The wind is blowing softly and a nice march breeze makes slightly shiver two boys, now facing each other in front of the gate of the U.A school building.
There's no one around.
Only the two of them.
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They never break the intense eye contact looking in their eyes,green meeting ruby, creating a strange atmosphere between them. They're both brave heroes, but also humans, imperfect and confusing, currently too afraid to say something.
Lost in their trance, their minds are wandering towards the same direction:a memory appears simultaneously in their heads.
Three years ago, at the same time, in the same place, Katsuki cried the first time in front of  Deku.
The blondes cheeks gain color, turning into a peach shade of pink from the embarrassment.
He'll never cry and appear so vulnerable in front of him anymore.
Or...at least that's what he's hoping for at the moment.
The situation is really bad, neither of the childhood friends wants to say something, although they both wanted to see each other.
Just staying there, makes Katsuki feel horrible: he wants to scream, throw up, curse and god knows what else, but he also can't keep denying forever the fact,  that in those past 3 years he really wanted to make up with Deku.He made him feel completely new emotions that he never felt before.
He wants to let out all the hate, and be a better person...but there's a problem.
Even if he's mature enough in his head he's not able to express it and as a result he still acts like his teenage self. The habit of always cursing and screaming never left him, even after the rebellion phase that he had pretty much, for his whole life.
Seeing how uncomfortable Kacchan is, Izuku decides to break the silence, and clenching his sweaty fists nervously, he clears his throat. After gulping quite loudly he opens his mouth.
He's sure that Kacchan wants this too, and to be honest he is happy just when simply being with him.
He knows, and he's sure that this feeling is mutual.
He always knew, and that's why he always followed him, wherever he would go and now he's here, standing in front of him: his sworn rival.
The tension among themselves is thick, but it's needs to be resolved as fast as possible.
"Kacchan"Deku thinks before starting to talk,
"I know that you miss me too."and then, trying to remain calm and not pass out being the wrack of nerves he is, he decides to just go with the flow.
"Well..."he lets his hand brush his messy green hair, that he decided to cut recently, reaching for a single curl with his fingers and playing with it.
"Good luck...with our future pro hero life....?"His voice turns out to be raspy and quiet.He stayed silent for too long.
And even tho he mentally is prepared for the conversation, his body won't listen to his owner,playing tricks.
"If I can't speak, let's see if Kacchan can"
Izuku takes a step forward tilting his head to one side, waiting for a response, that frankly never arrives.
The blonde feels his mouth dry as he frantically turns his head too ashamed to say even a single word. He growls with frustration, that he accumulated since this morning.
The knowledge that after today, he would never see the nerd at school is strangely overwhelming him.
He can't speak, just yet.
Deku gives up, and as he sighs he continues."Hey Kacchan..."he looks at him hoping for a reaction, hoping for an agreement that never occurred between them.
As he examines him, searching for a minimal change in his face that might betray his true emotions, suddenly he has an idea.
He never thought of physical affection affecting  Kacchan in any way, but if that's the last chance to tell him that he really means a lot to him, he might try it as well.
Katsuki's not as aggressive and prepotent as he was back in time, still he feels agitated. He takes a deep breath.
He has to do it, this is the  right chance.
He decides that THAT'S the moment and he will do it, even at the cost of losing his childhood friend forever.
His mind is blank and his breath is trembling,he wanted this for so long now.
His companion notices the sudden change, looking at him and feeling scared, as he always have been, too foolish and proud to actually admit it. He doesn't step back, but continues looking in Deku's eyes questioning himself. "Will he look down on me again?
Am I really that worthless?"
That was his last thought before a warm hand,covered with scars gently took his own and slowly interlocked his fingers with him, making his whole body tingle for some reason.
His brain can't understand what is going on and why is he feeling so good.
"Is this another of his new quirks?"he's panicking, and snaps back into reality only when he hears his voice calling his name.
"Kacchan!"Deku repeats, this time louder, and with a happier tone,releasing his emotions and suddenly feeling better.
"We finally reached OUR goal"tears form at the corners of his eyes."I'm so happy that we became heroes...."he squeezes the blondes hand.
"Thank you so so much!"He says as he genuinely smiles,little tears falling on his bright read cheeks covered with freckles, making Katsukis world instantly brighter.
His crimson eyes widen as his heart starts beating faster at every second.
He remains petrified, his body completely betraying him.
The touch of his hand, is really soft and delicate.
He automatically closes the gap between their fingers, squeezing his hand more.
Nobody.
Nobody have ever gave him this sort of affection before.
Nobody made him feel so insecure before.
Nobody.
"Is this the reason you where chasing after me?
Is this really the reason? Am I really that awesome for you?"he thinks.
Flashbacks of his childhood with Izuku passed thru his mind.
"So that's the matter? I Katsuki Bakugou took all of his friends, dreams and ambitions away because I was scared? Because I was
Weak?"
He fully realises what an enormous mistake he made when Deku starts praising him again.
"Hey"
An unpleasant feeling begins to spread thru Bakugou's whole body
"You know Kacchan-"
He starts to feel pressure in his chest, grappling his t-shirt and torching in with his fingers
"I made it this far thanks to you-"
Something shatters in his heart.
"So, even after all the things that you did to me-"
"How...could I...do this to him?Is this all I am capable of?"he thinks,feeling his eyes watery
"And that's why-"
His head starts spinning and he can't breath anymore.
"I will forever consider you my number one hero!"
Guilt.
That's the only emotion among anger and sadness that he's feeling in the present moment.
His internal monster, or may we call this, "the human part of him" finally decided to eat him raw.
He bursts.
"THAT'S OKAY!"he screams hearing his voice cracking.
"What?Kacchan calm down-"
"E-EAT ME! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT!"tears start to fall from his eyes. One. Two. Three. Four.
Until he's completely drained.
Five. Six. Seven.
He can't control them anymore.
His vision is blurry.
He realises that he's weak. He always was.
Is this too late to solve anything?
"DEKU YOU-"his voice cracks again.
"YOU...you fucking nerd..."
The last words are barely hearable.
He takes his hand that has been interlocked with his the whole time, and puts it on his chest sobbing hardly, falling on his knees.

"Deku, I ruined your life, didn't I?"

"When did you became such a crybaby?"Responds Deku sitting next to him, trying to hold back his tears as well.
He's sniffing loudly with his nose, shaking his head.
Bakugou's lips curl up at the corners, offering his childhood friend a tiny smile,that's all he can do right now.
"I always knew that you were a good person.
You just needed time. And patience."he says tearing down."We were stupid back then."he concludes.
"I was a fucking moron."Bakugou turns his head to look at Deku once again.
"He looks more masculine, and...mature?"
Bakugou closes his eyes and so does Deku.
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Some minutes pass.
The sky is turning dark, the sun is almost gone.
They are sitting on the ground, trying to calm down and forget all of the emotions that they encountered this evening, and since they're both psychically exhausted without noticing anything, they lean into each other, bump into each other and now Izukus head is resting on Katsukis shoulder.
Neither of them protests.
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"Guess we'll never be in the same fucking classroom anymore, huh?"Bakugou says suddenly. Deku nods,not wanting to interrupt their bonding moment that they never had in more then ten years.
"Tch, stop moving your head so much, you're tickling my neck"he tries not to scream or sound too irritated.
At the same time he feels really embarrassed.
"That's literally the most intimate thing that I ever had with a person...guess I'll die as a fucking virgin."he says not realising he said that out loud.
"Pfff-"the other covers his mouth with his hand trying not to laugh and piss of his...friend?
"Sorry Kacchan"he grins.
"Deku?"Katsuki feels the urge to ask him this question that has been, not exactly bothering, but staying in his mind for a lot of time now.
"Hm?"
"Why...are you still calling me with that shitty childhood nickname?"
"Eeeeh?You don't like it?! But you never protested until today-OUCH!"
Bakugou gives him a light slap on the back of his head.
"Never said I didn't like it"he mumbles facing in the opposite direction,feeling extremely ashamed, ears burning bright red.
"Anyways, nerd!"he realises that Deku is slightly smirking at him.
Coughing he changes the subject (that he and no one else has bring on)of the, well...conversation?
"I just got enlightened!"his face starts to look grumpy again.
"I'm quite unlucky actually."
"Might telling me why?"
"SHUT UP, I'M DOING IT! I realised that"he frowns and mentally slaps himself for screaming at him,"we might work together. As pro heroes."
Deku beams and as he stands up joyfully he offers Kacchan a hand."I'm looking forward to it. Do you think I want to separate so quickly from my number one hero?"he's raising a brow; it almost looks like he's teasing him. Katsuki looks at him faking an angry face, when in reality he's just as happy as the green haired boy in front of him,that wanted to help him since they were kids.
"You know what?"he thinks looking at Deku"Fuck it."
He grips his hand tightly,as the other one helps him stand up.
"Next time"Kacchan says looking at Izuku,his angry expression fading, substituted with a glare full of determination and courage,
"It will be ME saving YOUR ASS."he points at his chest to give an impact to the phrase.
Deku's eyes widen in surprise,his ears not believing what they have just heard.
"I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU!I CAN BE YOUR HERO!"he screams flustered.
"THE BEST FUCKING HERO THAT YOU COULD DREAM OF"his face is all red, not from anger but the strange feeling that's making him dizzy in his chest and mind.Again.
"I WANT TO BE YOUR HERO SO LISTEN, YOU LITTLE SHIT"He can hear his heart pounding in his ears and his hands trembling,same situation for Deku.
"I'M SORRY."he finally blurts out.
The weight that has been on his shoulders for so long, suddenly shatters in pieces living Katsuki liberated.
His true feelings finally came out of him.
The green haired boy is in ecstasy and he doesn't even know what he's doing.
"Then,I hope you don't mind this,"he says with a smile plastered on his face, his stomach filled whit a completely new, but at the same time old emotion directed towards Kacchan,feeling like they were kids again.
Like they were friends.
Like they loved each other.
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The sun set down and completely disappeared behind the horizon.
Sakura trees are still blossoming as some petals fell out, peacefully settled down on the ground.
The wind is still blowing softly and a nice late evening march breeze doesn't make shiver two boys,because now
they are feeling warm,holding each other tightly and caressing their faces with affection,in front of the gate of the U.A school building.
There's no one around.
Only the two of them.
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Hope that you enjoyed!!!
Sorry if I didn't put any kiss scene here, It just felt right like this idk
I think that this one shot concentrates more on their emotions and how they have matured during the years, more than on a romantic concept :)
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(Also, If u know any good bakudeku fan fictions feel free to promote yourself if you're a writer or to tag some creators in the comments!!!)
Byeee <3