dread of color

♡

why, does it look like i'm lying ?

of course i am

i never wanted to say the truth, it was never this fun when i was honest with them

but i hate how you could look at me, say my name, hold my hand and suddenly the start till the end of my life was all in your hands

lets start here though,

i never said i didn't love you, nor did i say i was in love with you

i wanted to tell you that i was bored, you were someone who amused me.

but then you saw all through me, told me

"this isn't you, i would've never imagine you would do all this to me while wearing the one thing you think defines you."

then i saw it, maybe this was love to me