What was I thinking?
Thinking that you could ever love me again
You broke my heart but you also broke yours
It was to save yourself from the inevitable
I know that now
I was going to hurt you
No, I was hurting you.
Now you're free and you can fly but I'm still pinned between two immovable walls slowly squeezing in tighter
Now I'm going through another heartbreak though maybe not as hard
He likes another, I feel
He avoids me now
He ignores my emails
I wonder
Am I an annoyance to him?
Of course I am
Of course he'd hate as well
I'm changing
And not for the better
I'm hurting
But not in a good way
I'm in a box and I don't know how to get out
Show me how…
Please…..
I use books as an escape
And they help
Except….
There's always romance
And it kills
It absolutely murders me
And it hurts..
So
Much
