Hopeless // Jennie Kim

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"Am I a ghost?
Then why can't you see me?
Is it still winter?
Then why does it still feel cold?
I used to feel your warmth
But now that you found someone
You're gone."
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Third Person's POV

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Life is hard. And some people say that love made it easier to live. They said that because they have someone whom they love. But what about the persons who didn't have their love ones. What about the one who got stuck on a very platonic relationship. What about the one who's just keep hoping for their crushes to like them back.

Y/n, a girl who always follows her best friend like some cute little puppy. She always felt the need to protect the other girl. She didn't even know how did her feelings happen. It just happened one day, she felt the world stop just by looking at her best friend's gummy smile. It's a bit cliché at that part but you know how it is when you have taken a like for someone.

Y/n was chilling in her favorite park which is just in a mile away from her dorm. Her ears were covered by her earphones, her mind singing the lyrics of the song. In her left hand, she held her opened sketchbook while on the right was her pencil. Y/n really liked to draw. She always drew some random things in her sketchbook.

Suddenly, her earphones got plugged out, causing her to flinch at the sudden action.

"Y/N!!Guess what?!" Jennie cheerily said. Her gummy smile showing and that also made Y/n smile so widely. She didn't know how she was greatly affected just by Jennie's presence. And she don't know how Jennie does that to her.

"What?" Y/n said with a bright smile at her face.

"Kai asked me on a date today! He-" Her rambles about Kai deafened Y/n. Jennie didn't notice how Y/n smile slowly faded. She was too busy rambling about the campus' heartthrob. Y/n felt someone shrugged her shoulders, bringing her mind back to her reality.

"Huh?"

"-So will you accompany me today at my house?" Jennie asked with her baby voice.

"Okay" Her mouth said automatically. And that moment she knew she had it really bad. Y/n will do everything for her best friend who is also her first love. And that made her feel scared because she knows that it will be hurting her so bad in the future.

The last thing she knew was that she was dragged out at her seat.

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"So, how do I look?" Jennie asked, slowly twirling. Y/n bit her bottom lip as she checks her best friend out. Jennie was wearing a black fitted dress that hugged her body tightly causing her cleavage to show up. Y/n almost choke on her saliva the moment her best friend walked out her walk-in closet. Y/n's face was so red that you'll recognise her as a tomato. Also, she almost flipped out when she saw Jennie's back.

"Fuck" she mumbled. What a lucky bastard Kai is, she thought.

"Y/n, what do you think?" Jennie asked again, being nervous as to why Y/n is quiet all the time. Does the dress not suit her? Does she look fat? Now that she think of it, it made her heartache.

"Wha-why are you crying?" Y/n worriedly make her way to her. Y/n was still taller than Jennie even though the short girl already wore a high heels.

"I'm not crying. It's just that I'm afraid that I look ugly and fat-" Jennie couldn't even continue what she will say when Y/n already hug her so tight. The pain in her chest faded away when she heard Y/n's whispers.

"You are not ugly nor fat. You're quite the opposite actually. I mean-" Y/n paused and pulled away from the hug. She put a distance between them, still holding Jennie's shoulders.

"-look at you. You're so gorgeous and really sexy. And besides even though you're fat, you are still sexy to me." Y/n's hand went to her best friend's cheeks, gently removing the girl's tears.

"Now, you better prepare or you are going to be late, my lady" Y/n said, pinching Jennie's mandu cheeks. The girl nod and went to her comfort room. Y/n couldn't help to let out a sigh. Why couldn't Jennie see her? She isn't a fucking damn ghost.

If only Y/n have the guts to confess. If only Jennie can see the obvious feelings from her best friend. If only Jennie feels the same thing to her. If only Y/n isn't just a sister to her. If only- f u c k.

Y/n is getting tired of ifs. She wanted to make it real but how. How can she admit her feeling without breaking their friendship. She know that it is really not brave to do that but can you blame her.

Jennie is the only one who is always right beside her since the day both of her parents died. She was the one who told her to never give up on life. She was the one who still hold her hand even though she's falling, still gripping on to Jennie to save her dear life.

Y/n knows that she shouldn't give her all to Jennie but what can she do if she is fucking in love with her best friend.

Hopefully, Y/n wouldn't regret not stopping her from her date.

And lastly, Jennie freaking Kim is so fucking dumb and naive.