I really don't understand,why it has to be that way
I do everything you want and yet you are always at me,
Snapping at me for everything I say and do,
"Why are you so immature?' You say,' why do you find everything so funny?"
And those words alone wouldn't hurt so much if not for the loathing and disgust I see in your eyes. If only you were joking...
I ask you "why are you with me?" And you get mad.
"Why do you always need reassurence, why are you such a child?"
And the loathing again. The loathing in your eyes. The disappointment written on your face. I wish I would get an answer
Why do you hate me so much I don't understand. I do everything you want me to. And even though I am so broken inside, even thought it hurts every day, I still put on my brightest smile when I see you.
I still try to small talk with you, joke, try to make you smile and laugh.
But all I see is the loathing, writen all over your face. Everything I say, you judge it, you say you don't wonna hear it. You shut down every attemt to converse with me. I am afraid to speak any more.
At this point I am not sure if at some point we turned to enemies. But even to those, you don't speak that way.
My heart is broken. My mind is shuttered. You don't understand this. You don't want to understand. You hate me for this. Even though I've told you about it a million times .
Can't you just accept me for who I am?
Am I that bad?
It it really my fault?
I am sorry but I don't know how long I can keep on smiling and pretending everything is ok anymore. I am sorry.
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The darkness prevails
PoesiaI know no one is going to read this but these are poems αnd quotes I wrote based on my own experience and I just wanted to let them out. Poems quotes and stories, Of art and of worries, Darkness, Depression And love reincarnation. Made by my sel...
