𝕀 𝕣𝕖𝕞𝕖𝕞𝕓𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟... ~ 𝔼𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕟 ℕ𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣

𝟚𝟘𝟙𝟟

*alarm tone*

I rolled over glumly as I heard my alarm go off next to my bed. I went through my everyday routine.

Shower.

Breakfast.

Find an outfit.

Wait for the stream.

Okay now we wait.

I decided to go to the local cafe near my apartment in central LA. It was the quietest work environment I could find after moving here back in 2015. It was cozy and they let me connect to their locked wifi instead of using my hotspot.

"Hey Faith! How's the day going love?" The 40 some year old barista who I had come to know as Mary said as she handed a drink to the previous customer.

"It's going." I said with a giggle. I ordered my usual after setting down my stuff at the little window booth next to the window. I got back and checked my phone.

*incoming message*

Ethan: Gooooooooood morning!!! I have news Feth!

I hated that nickname but I chuckled to myself, curious of his obvious excitement.

Me: Whaaaaaaaat is the news!! :)

Ethan: *video*

I opened it to see all of the boys standing there, frozen until I beckoned the video to play.

"WE'RE GOING ON TOUR!!!"

I shouted out loud, overcome with joy for them! Mary looked at me with a curious smile. All I could do is apologize and rush to respond.

Me: NO WAY that's amazing!! When do you leave? How long have you been planning this?

Ethan: Well I've known for a month now but our first show is about to sell out and we reserved you and a few others a ticket!! It's friday!

My mouth swung open as I realized how soon this was. I also came to realize that they'd be gone for a long time. A pit in my stomach started to develop. I wasn't sure why, I had been able to survive in situations like this, my friends could do without me as well. I just was gonna miss them.

Me: That's so awesome!!! I'll be there!!

Ethan: Oh and there's an afterparty at our place! Wanna come? It's a kind of sending off party :D

Me: Of course ill be there dork haha. Congrats Eef!!

I closed my phone.

"What am I gonna do without them for a while? I hope they stay safe. I hope Ethan remembers his medical stuff. I hope he doesn't forget to call me on tour. I hope he..I hope they have a good time." My mind was scrambled with thoughts about this whole thing. About him.

Friday, 11:46 pm

"CONGRATULATIONS!!!" The group shouted as Ethan led Mark into his house, giddy with adrenaline from the show. I watched them hug and talk before they both entered the party. I made my way towards them to go congratulate them individually. Mark, Tyler, Bob, Wade and finally Ethan.

"Well I think its official, you've made it chief!" I said hugging him. "Awhhhhhhh Faith!!!!"

We chatted for a while, drink after drink passed. We laughed, played games with the group. After a while the people flooded out of the house and I realized they had to leave the next morning. I got up, the best i could, and began to lead Ethan upstairs.

"Faith you're the bestttttttt." He said, giggling almost maniacally. "Okay you need sleep...and so do I" We arrived and I sat him down on the bed, exhaling deeply as I sat down next to him. At this point, he was way more intoxicated than I was.

"Faith come with us please!!" He said wiping his eyes, slouching with every influction.

"Eef I can't you know that! You have to remember to call me, okay?"

"Okay" He said with a dopey smile.

We sat there. Just looking at each other. He sat up, suddenly aware of the situation. He scratched his neck as I sat forward, picking at my nails.

His hand fell over mine. I glanced up.

"Faith. I don't wanna loose you." You smiled with awe. "You're not gonna, I promise."

Before I could say anything else, our lips connected. He tasted like sprite and vodka. He held my face and lent into me.

"Ethan..."

"I'm sorry, I just felt like this was a good moment and I've wanted to do that for a while. I'm so sorry..." He said shaking his head, rubbing his eyes again.

"I love you, you know that Ethan?"

"I love you too Faith. I'm so sorry."

I spent the rest of that night cooing him to sleep, his blue hair was messy, some strands stuck to his face.

He fell asleep in my lap.

I kissed him on the forehead and found my way out of the house.

All I could say while closing my car door was "Finally."

I grinned like an idiot and drove home.