Harry’s POV
It all started back during The X Factor. I should have figured it out then, but I was only 16. I didn’t know what I was thinking, what I was doing, or how I felt. I just knew the minute that I met Louis, we clicked right away. I just figured we would be best friends. I knew we had a special bond; everyone knew it. As we got older, and our friendship developed, so did my feelings for him. I knew it was wrong to feel that way about my best friend, so I pushed those feelings away.
Every time Louis would cuddle with me, or brush my hair out of my face, I got butterflies in my stomach. I knew I was falling in love with him, but I needed to stop. Nothing could ever happen. That’s when I introduced Louis to Eleanor. That was probably the biggest mistake of my life. The second they met, I knew I had screwed myself over.
“Louis, this is Eleanor!” I smiled. “El, this is my best friend, Louis.”
“Hi,” she smiled sweetly at him.
“Hello, love, nice to meet you.” He grinned back at her. Once I saw his face, my heart dropped into my stomach. I felt sick, because I wanted him to look at me like that.
“So guys, I’ll catch up with you later,” I said, leaving them alone.
It took them months to start dating. Part of me hoped it was because Louis was unsure about her, but deep down, I knew Louis didn’t feel for me how I felt for him. As they dated, I got more and more agitated with the situation. I liked her less and less, and I hated how she treated him. Sure, she was beautiful, and she was good at coming off sweet, but she really could be a miserable person. Later in their relationship, I felt like Louis was becoming less and less infatuated with her. I felt like he was forcing himself to stay with her, but I didn’t know why.
It was in the middle of September this year when I really screwed things up.
“Harry,” Liam said, pulling me aside.
“Yeah, mate?” I asked him.
“I’d be careful. I know you’re thinking about telling Louis how you feel, but he’s still with Eleanor. I just don’t want you to get hurt, and honestly mate, you know how Louis can get. I don’t want anything to be messed up with the band. We have a lot coming up next year…” He trailed off. Liam was the only one who really knew how I felt about Louis. It had taken me a long time, but I finally accepted that I was in love with him. And I knew things with him and Eleanor were rough, so I decided I wanted to tell him.
“I know, Liam. But honestly, we’re adults, so we’ll be able to deal with it like we’re adults. I just need to get this out, so I can move on.” I said.
He sighed and nodded, as I walked out the door, and I went over to Louis’. I took a few deep breaths, and I knocked on his door. “Hey Haz!” He smiled as he opened the door and let me in.
“Hey, Lou,” I almost whispered.
“What’s up, mate?” He asked.
My heart was racing, and I was so nervous. My hands were clammy, and I could tell I was blushing. “I need to tell you something, Louis.” I said.
“Sure, what’s wrong? You look nervous,” he observed.
“Yeah, I’m extremely nervous. Louis, I just need you to hear me out, okay? Because it’s really important that I get this out.” I said. He nodded, and I continued. “Louis, ever since I met you at The X Factor, I knew we would be best friends. There was just something about our friendship, and I loved it. I was only 16 then, so I really didn’t understand how I was feeling, or why I felt like that. But as we’ve gotten older, and I’ve been able to understand my feelings, Louis, I get it all now. Yeah, we’re best friends, but I’m also in love with you.” I spilled out.
