When you get back home from the mission with Avani you say hi to your mom and go upstairs to your bedroom you get changed into pijamas bc ur tired
Avani ended up staying over and y'all fell asleep as soon as your heads hit the pillows
The next day (6:00 am) You wake up to someone hugging you by the waist You look next to you and see Avani You wake her up and tell her to go to her house to get ready for school School starts at 8:35 am soo you have time Your mom walks in to your room
Eli: so y/n I want to talk to you...abt school
You:ok...continue
Eli:well I saw your grades yesterday and they have dropped
You:Ik but I'm trying my best to keep up with school the gang is taking up a lot of time
Eli:well then give up the gang
You:no the gang was passed down to me by my father that is dead excuse me if I want to keep something from my father
Eli:you know what school is more important than a fucking gang
You:well guess what not for me
Eli:you are a disappointment and a waste of time seriously why can't you just keep up with school and you are so fucking disrespectful
You: Yeah, I guess I'm a disappointment Doing everything I can I don't wanna make you disappointed. It's annoying. I just wanna make you feel like everything I ever did Was never tryna make an issue for you. But, I guess the more you thought about everything You were never even wrong in the first place, right?
Eli:you know what shit it get ready for school and just leave get out
You get up and get ready this is what you wear:
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You leave the house and you go to school
When you get to school you ignore everyone You feel horrible You go to your locker and see that chase wasn't there to ask you if it was at your house or his (tutoring you dirty little freaks {jk it was me thinking wrong ✋🧍♀️})
You felt even worse you were counting on him to make you feel better You went to class but Avani stopped you
Av:Stop ignoring me y/n pls You:imma just ignore you You:can you leave me alone? Av:I'm just walking towards you You:I'm with my head down looking at the ground it's pretty obvious I don't want to be with you right now Av:ik you don't mean that don't say things you will regret pls
At this point she had glossy eyes
You: please don't come after me, I just want to be alone right now. I don't really want to think at all You kept walking to class
*skip till the end of the day bc idk what else to do and I have an idea👨🏻🦲*
You get home you have been ignoring everyone today you have probs abt 15382 missed messages and calls
You get home sobbing and run to your room
When you get to ur room you sit down in your bed and start crying even more
Whenever your feeling down you talk to your dad even tho he isn't there with you he is always there spiritually
You lay down in your bed and look up that the ceiling and start talking to your dad
You: I'm embarrassed for you, paranoia, what did I do wrong this time? That's parents for you. You:feels like I'm on the edge right now, I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down You:L-L-L-Let you down You say between sobs You feel your shoulder being touched and heard someone saying Someone:that's ok let it all out kiddo You: all these voices in my head get loud I wish that I I could shut them out, I'm sorry that I let you down
You sit up straight and feel arm wrapping around you but there was nobody in the room
Someone: kiddo you are not a disappointment at all you fought for what you think was right and I'm proud of you and you haven't let me down you are the most important thing to me ever I love you kiddo
And after that you felt arms unwrap and you felt something leave
That always happened when you talked to your dad
A few mins go by and your mom knocks on your door
You: if it's you mom I don't want to listen to it Your mom opens the door and sits on the side of your bed
(You are laying sideways w ur back to her hopefully you understand)
Y/m: hunny I'm sorry I didn't mean to go off on you like that...but to make this work...you can't talk to me like that it was very disrespectful
(To you...it is disrespec- to you first of all it's disrespectful in genera-to you
Sorry I had to🧍♀️)
You: you don't wanna make this work, you just want to make it worse-
Y/m:ofc not if you listened to m-
You turn around to face her while sitting up straight
You: that the problem you want me to listen to you but you don't ever hear my words, you don't wanna know my hurt yet. Let me guess you want a apology, probably
Y/m- yk what I'm sick and tired I just wanted to keep going on with you and have less fights but you make it impossible
You: how can we keep going at a rate like this? We can't so I guess imma have leave
Y/m- fine have it your way leave go ahead
She leave slamming the door behind her
You get up and pack up 3 bag packs
1 w clothes (pants shirts underwear) 1 w your toiletries (soap make up lotion tooth brush etc.) And 1 w ur technology and pictures (laptop iPad phone chargers and the pics of you and Avani and the whole squad together)
You get ur backpacks and run downstairs and out the door
You hear your mom yelling behind But you just keep running and running and don't stop for half a hour
When you stop you stop at a park and it seems familiar but you ignored it you sat down in the swings and stayed there for a good time crying your eyes out
You kept thinking:
☁︎︎I ran away from home what did I just do?!! Why did I do that I pushed everyone away and then I run away I really do suck-☁︎︎
You got snapped out of your thoughts when someone tapped you shoulder
And it was someone you didn't expect to see....
HIIII IM BACKKK!!! I'm excited today I post my book ahhhh!! Anyways hi how y'all doing?!
Today's question: Who do you think was the person that tapped your shoulder?!
Anywaysss I like the idea of the the book so I would appreciate it if you voted umm sooo yeah
Love youuuu
I feel like I'm missing sum Ohhh yeah today's word count: Wordcount:1212words
