False (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 5

Author's Note:

I have recently been getting back into Wattpad and finally updating my long forgotten stories. I have arranged my story into chapters, organizing my story and enhancing the ability to read the story in a more efficient way. I am sorry if there has been any confusion.

On with the chapter..

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Paisely POV:

I am perturbed by the whole experience. I mean, I just confessed my love for someone, something I've sworn I'd never do. Never get attached, don't let anyone in. Never mess up on that fake smile of yours. I've done all of those in a matter of a minute and a half. I have forgotten all that I have worked up for. I can't let it slip through just yet. I can't let Louis in quite so quickly.

And what about Eleanor? Good 'ole Eleanor, and her poor little heart. She's gracious and beautiful and trusting, she falls so hard and so fast. I can't recall a person falling in love so fast. And she doesn't deserve a heartbreak like this, knowing someone never loved her and putting it on for publicity and just being used? I know Louis isn't that malicious or cruel, but will Eleanor be forgiving on the flip side of the table? 

Confessing my love was a giant mistake I can't undo. I don't want Louis to forget Eleanor and leave her in the dust, because God knows what will happen with her. She'll find out it was all my damn fault, being around Louis and making him fall in love with me. I don't want to jump into a relationship with me all unstable and suicidal, either. I don't want to be a self-destructive lonely girl desperate for a sign of love, only to break down more once it's gone. 

I don't think Louis quite understands what he is in control of. He has my heart, a broken heart, and Eleanor's, young and eager. I don't think she's been in this serious of a relationship, and she's just a puppy, longing for a chase and a long-lasting love. But all she is is unrequited love.

So, I think I can mend a part of this problem, leaving Louis in control of only Eleanor's heart. And that requires some serious blocking out of him in my love life. I can't let him in, and I can't show emotion. I've promised myself this before, but it's more important than ever right now. I have to keep him in love with me, just a little, and him in love with Eleanor. I'll be able to mend, and maybe, just maybe, we can start a relationship when it's right, if Eleanor falls out of love or they break up for some reason. I'm not hoping this will happen, just trying to make Louis happy, and his career stable. He needs this publicity of love.

Besides, they're about to blow up in the U.S. I can't get in the way of him leaving London for a tour in the states. I can't leave him hanging onto me.

Just be friendly, that's all, I think.

Louis POV:

I still have a lot of unanswered questions for Paisely, and for myself. I know Paisely is thinking about Eleanor and her well-being. I know she wants me to love Eleanor, and not her. I know she is only thinking of me, and my career. But what about my true feelings? I need to cram that into her, make her understand it's okay. I can finally love her, and she can show her heart, because she needs to. She's like the moon, a part of her always hidden away. To unveil it, we got to shine a little light on it.

I sigh as I walk back to the boys' and I's flat, eager to tell them the news. Wait, I think. I can't tell them about the cutting. I'll just say I never found out, it was tough to bring up. I already told them about the anxiety, and I know Paisely doesn't want anyone to know about her problems. I puff out a little cloud of air and stuff my hands in my pockets. Snow has begun to fall in this city. Paisely's voice plays in my head on repeat.