Losing // Chapter 18

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~ Niall's eyes

I was frozen in my spot, absorbing her words

"That the whole world is watching!" She looked down to her feet "That's the problem"

Her words echoed in my head like drums, drums that were constantly being played without stop. The sound resting in the air, leaving a ring that was impossible to get rid off.

The whole world is watching... well technically, but, that doesn't mean that the world won't like it, right? Maybe the world likes it? What if the world doesn't? That would be a problem. Were we a problem? Was I the problem? What if I was the problem? Maybe I was, maybe I wasn't enough.

"Horan! You're still here" A voice was heard in the distance, but I didn't move, I couldn't

"Horan!" The same voice exclaimed, but now it was near me, by my side

"What" I plainly answered, no emotion showed in my voice

"We need to talk" The voice stated

"I don't want to talk right not, Richard"

"Oh, I don't remember asking you if you wanted to, I said, 'we need to talk'. Come inside"

I sighed, it was really not the moment. What could he possibly want to tell me? Was it really necessary to talk right now? I mentally insulted him, because I knew that if I insulted him out loud it wouldn't make me any good. However I continued following his steps, until we reached his office

"Sit" He demanded

"Im not a dog, Richard" I stated, sitting anyways

"I need to talk to you about Athena"

Are you fucking kidding me?

"I don't know what the fuck is going on between you two, but it ends right now. You think I didn't see both of your expressions when the fans asked if you two were dating? You think I didn't see the dissapointment if both of your eyes?!" He stared at me "Look, I'm making this simple you. Or you end your little relationship, or I end your career."

I looked down to my feet

"We are not together..." I whispered

He bitterly laughed "What do you think I am? Dumb? Fucking papparazzi! Do you know how much I had to pay for those pictures to not get out? Do you have any idea?!" He made a pause "Have I made myself clear?"

I didn't answer

"I asked you something!" He yelled

"Yes, clear as water"

"Good, now leave"

I stood on my feet and quickly left the square room. Papparazzi? How did papparazzi took pictures of us? When?

End everything? What is everything? We weren't even together. How could I end something that never started? Why did she left that way? It wasn't my fault...

Now I was angry

She shouldn't have left that way, she should've stayed so we could talk things through, she's the one who signed the contract! Well... I signed a contract as well. However, she should've supported me, she should've been here with me! She wasn't the only one upset, it wasn't all about her!

I went into my car and turned on the engine, hearing it roar and giving me a bit of pleasure. I turned on the radio, hoping that it would distract me. Soft music filled my ears and gave me peace, but of course, today wasn't my day

'And here we have Athena Rivers, with her new and first song Naked. Athena was discovered by Niall Horan on twitter and is now working with Modest! management. She's rising to fame quickly and featuring in the charts'

"No!" I yelled to myself and put the radio down

I met Athena about 2 or 3 months ago, and she already had this effect on me. How was I supposed to ignore her? I will literally tour with her. It's impossible for me to just ignore her.

I parked my car near a pub, but not in the door. When I was walking towards the pub I heard my name being called

"Niall!" A female voice called. I turned around and realized that it wasn't anyone I knew. It was a young girl at least 17. Her eyes were filled with tears and she was crying

"Niall, oh my god, I'm such a big fan!" The girl cried in a high pitched voice and I couldn't help but smile. I loved meeting fans

"Hello darling, how are you?" I politely asked

"Great now that I'm in front of you! I cant believe this is real, I think I'm going to faint!"

"Don't faint please! What's your name?"

"Laura, my name is Laura"

"Thats's a beautiful name, do you want a photo?"

She nodded and we took a photo. She grabbed a little tissue from her bag and a pen and asked me to give her my autograph

"Do you mind if I record a video for me and my sister?" She shyly asked

"No of course not! What's your sister's name?"

"Athena."

My face dropped and my smile faded. It's not even a common name!

"What are the odds?" I whispered to myself

"Did you say something?" Laura asked

"Oh no nothing, let's record that video"

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After meeting that fan I decided to go home. I wasn't in the mood for having a drink anymore. It was like she was everywhere. Like everytime I turned a corner I saw her figure, I felt her over my shoulder but she wasn't really there.

I wasn't sure who I was mad at, I was definitely mad at myself, I was mad at Richard, that was the only thing I knew. But I didn't know if I was mad at Athena, I mean, I understood that she was upset, I was as well! But that's not a reason for giving up!

A ringing interrupted my thoughts

Ath

Ath : I'm sorry

"Look, you decide. Or you end your little relationship, or I end your career." Richard's words rang in my head

You: I'm not. Maybe we shouldn't have tried, I think we are better as friends

Ath : Are you being serious right now?

You: Goodbye Athena

Athena Rivers: Niall, don't do this, please

*You blocked this contact, go to settings to unblock*

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A/N: preparing myself for the hate I'm gonna get in 1,2,3

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