windflower

chapter 1

Baekhyun always believes in Chanyeol.

His husband never broke his promises or made him sad. He always does his best fulfilling his commitment as a husband even though he has a big responsibility on his shoulder. Baekhyun accepts him for what he is, he understands Chanyeol's job as the General of this country. He is also aware that his husband is risking his life protecting the people.

But, it doesn't mean that he is ready to accept his death.

Baekhyun still remembers when Chanyeol only comes back for two days after months in the front line -- battling against the invaders from the North. After achieving tremendous success, Chanyeol finally went back home -- back to Baekhyun's embrace.

"I'm on leave for two weeks, "

Chanyeol said, with Baekhyun on his lap -- refusing to let the taller go anywhere even though his uniform stinks with gunpowder and blood.

The smaller gasped in surprise before looking up at Chanyeol.

"Why?" He asked, Chanyeol never taking a vacation this long before.

The general smiles in adoration seeing the confused looks of his sweetheart.

"We have never been on our honeymoon right?"

Baekhyun nodded, it's true that they have never gone on a honeymoon ever since they got married one year ago. Baekhyun doesn't mind, he understands Chanyeol's duty. As long as his husband comes back to him alive, he is content with everything.

"Junmyeon said the beach in the northwest is beautiful. Let's go there shall we?"

Baekhyun hugs Chanyeol again, too happy to even mutter any words. His husband chuckled at the reaction while caressing the soft locks tenderly.

"I love you, pup"

Baekhyun smiled upon hearing the endearing name that his husband gave to him ever since they met for the first time.

"I love you too"

-

It was during the morning of Chanyeol's second day on break, Baekhyun was watering the blooming Anemone flowers while Chanyeol was preparing breakfast for both of them. Then suddenly, a military truck parked in front of their house.

Baekhyun feels uneasy.

Junmyeon was seen getting out of the truck before greeting Baekhyun and asking for permission to meet his husband, his face looks full of worries.

"Junmyeon?" Before Baekhyun could even answer his husband called out the soldier in front of their door.

The said man ran towards Chanyeol, giving him a salute then, explaining the whole situation to the general of the war.

Baekhyun looks at how Chanyeol's nonchalant expression turned gloomy the longer he listened to Junmyeon. After a few minutes of conversation with Junmyeon, Chanyeol strides to him.

He looks troubled and frustrated.

"I'm sorry, I need to go back to the headquarters. One of our bases was destroyed last night"

Although his heart refuses to let Chanyeol go, Baekhyun has to comply with it because it is Chanyeol duty. And he understands it very well even before marrying the General.

"It's okay, I understand" Baekhyun gave him a reassuring smile even though he is about to cry.

Chanyeol doesn't look convinced but he still went back to their home, to change back to his uniform that just been washed yesterday.

Baekhyun sighed heavily, trying to control his emotion.

When Baekhyun saw Chanyeol again, the latter was already in his uniform with his heavy bag on his shoulder. Junmyeon is already waiting for Chanyeol inside the truck.

His husband jogs at him, before giving a bone-crushing embrace to the smaller while peppering him with kisses all over Baekhyun's pretty face.

His mouth doesn't stop murmuring apology and his love for him.

"I'm okay just be safe" Baekhyun assured him over and over again.

Chanyeol finally let him go, then proceeded to give him one last passionate kiss on the lips. Baekhyun clings to the General, scared to let him go despite the assuring words from his own mouth earlier.

They break apart when oxygen becomes an issue. Chanyeol caressing his face gently against his rough palms.

"I will be back before you even know"

Baekhyun believes in his words.

Chanyeol will be fine.

Everything will be fine.

-

The war with the North continues, soldiers were dispatched to the front line even though they were exhausted by the previous war with the same nation. Everyone wonders how the North can become this powerful even after their humiliating defeat just barely weeks ago.

It was already two months after Chanyeol's departure to the headquarters. Every night no matter how busy he was, his husband always called him and told him about his day.

However, it has already been three days since Chanyeol last called him. He is worried sick but decided not to dwell on the negative feelings because he is carrying another life inside of him now.

Baekhyun rubbed his still flat tummy, happy to receive the news that he is two months pregnant. Three days ago, Baekhyun felt sick and thought that he might have caught a fever, but it turns out that he is pregnant with Chanyeol's child. The smaller one wanted to tell Chanyeol about the news but, since the taller didn't call him he didn't get the opportunity to inform him about their baby.

Baekhyun is just resting outside with a book on his lap while enjoying the soft breeze of the evening accompanied by birds chirping happily on the tree. It is a comfortable atmosphere. But if Chanyeol is here everything will be better, he thought.

Of course, Baekhyun is aware of his husband's obligation. Marrying him means that he has to marry his job too. But, Baekhyun can't help but wishes he can be selfish for once and have Chanyeol for himself.

His fingers turned the book into the next page when suddenly, he heard the sounds of a truck engine coming closer to his house. Baekhyun looked up and saw the familiar truck stopped in front of his house.

Baekhyun beamed in delight because Chanyeol is coming back to him! No wonder there are no phone calls, his husband must have wanted to give him a surprise. The smaller get up from his seat, about to leap into Chanyeol embrace.

However, something is not right because only Junmyeon and two soldiers got out of the truck.

Baekhyun tries to find Chanyeol but even his shadow is not visible to him.

His heart started to beat faster, he was nervous, anxious, and wondering where his husband could be?

Junmyeon stood in front of him -- his face was grim and full of scars and bruises. He brings his peaked cap to his chest.

No, no.

Baekhyun watched this gesture so many times in movies that he already knew what the soldier would say to him. His hands are shaking uncontrollably, scared to hear anything that will come out from Junmyeon.

"General of the South military Park Chanyeol"

Baekhyun stops breathing.

"Was killed on the night of 24th June in Headquarter, as the result of attacks by the North"

Then, his world suddenly turned pitch black.